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Saturday, March 03, 2012

colors and promises.

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right now, i shall dream about my future, discover what i like, explore the available options and believe i can do it. im really scared. it's almost as if im taking my a levels all over again! that uncertain and helpless feeling. and coming from me, i gues it could be weird.

DARE TO DREAM. CARPE DIEM (seize the day)
pray. ms N as well as C reminded me to do that (: and. right, dont worry about the Uni tuition fees. tell me how that is possible? im earnest and honestly interested in that course, please give me the scholarship. i swear i dont do slipshod work!

dont ever give up. that's what defines failure. if you fall and stay there, refusing to try again, will you grow and learn?

& really. im not perfect you know. i do get scared. and stressed. hearing I'll-see-you-on-stage-later doesnt actually reassures me! i do have the fear of failure. fear of letting people down. and perhaps, even stronger.

thats what i do! hope. hope for the best. (: many things are beyond our control! as my tour guide likes to say, smile! be happy! regardless of your mood and what (terrible) things which happened to you, the day will still pass! a discouraged person will find his troubles increasing, while a cheerful person will find solutions and opportunities in situations!

which is true. the earth doesnt stop revolving just bcos of you!

i wonder.. if my logic makes sense. cos i know sometimes it doesnt! hahahah just ask my friends!

yes.
am i a happy person? hahahaha i think im quite normal leh! :D ms C seems to have a theory on why im a happy person! hahahah!
my boyfriend was trying to prove it. he said laugh? and i start laughing! hahahahaah! i think i laugh everyday! J said she laughs at all my jokes (what? i joke? lololol) & D and i laugh at like, everything and anything! hahahah at some parts of This Means War (even Harry Potter), no one else was laughing but the two of us! :D
good times.am i happy bcos of the good things in my life? or good things are in my life bcos im happy? this is like the chicken-and-egg-which-comes-first situation! i see good in everything, and it makes life good! and perhaps bcos life is good, i see everything (mostly) in rose-tinted glasses! mentality goes a long way!
&everyone has his own battles to fight. you arent the only one feeling that way.

so pretty.
i love art&craft. i love creating and designing things when i feel like it. and i guess, that's why i dont have the confidence and passion to opt for Design courses! like i told my mother, when the mood strikes or when i feel like making gifts, i'll really enjoy myself! but to design and create for work? on a daily basis?

would you?
i wouldnt. there are things that happen which i absolutely hate. i would want everyone i love to be healthy and alive. but i guess, things always happen for a reason. one thing leads to another! butterfly effect?
contentment!

open your eyes, open your heart. you arent alone.

how the mind and heart works. always a mystery (:

you can have the sky if you want to,