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Sunday, March 25, 2012

heart of gratitude,

i think, regardless what happens, life is still beautiful. there is good in everyday life. always.

be grateful. be contented. be happy! (:
you cant have everything. but you can make the best out of everything that you have! (;

& i know i have alot (: yes, there are troubles. there will be rocky times. there will be disappointments and tears and angry words. but, i do have my lovely friends, safe home, and a wonderful boyfriend. and a really faithful God.

pretty. they look more like art than umbrellas! i think creation is absolutely amazing. create beautiful things. not hurtful and angry words.

the simplest things can be made so pretty.

met up with Amanda on Friday! the very first time i met up with her alone since, the time i knew her! &partly from the nerves (H& S will totally get what i mean-- additional cheers to them who gave me moral support! i really have fantastic friends. what did i do to deserve them? all you people are so fab. really touched) we talked about anything and everything! hahahahaha! and she needs to gain back weight...... lol!

i think? Monday to Thursday will be family time (: Friday will be friends time. Saturday and Sunday morning/early afternoon will be boyfriend time. Sunday late afternoon would be me-time. Night time and Early morning are prayer/ quiet time (:
work has a way of putting things into a different perspective for me (:

he makes me feel so loved (: so darned thankful.

feel it.

i know that feeling. im usually happy. but that doesnt mean im free from all sorts of problems!

i do (:

Wednesday, March 14, 2012

Darling don't be afraid

(: honestly.

does he know that he can make my day simply with a morning sms? (: esp when he sneaked me a sms ytd (:

restless night! kicked things off my bed during my sleep-- okayyy time to pack my bed ): and you just bought a top and a dress ytd! need to pack le! :D shopping round2 tml? :D

hehe my birthday present from my parents (: its almost 5months late, but idc, i love it! :D there's another watch, with a sweet pink watch face :D love it too! :D and the price of these two watches is comparable to the price of this particular Ellesse watch i fell in love with! omg. thank God i din ask my parents to buy when i first set my sights on that watch!

delayed gratification? :D

i really am thankful for my parents and family (: i love them so much (: and im really lucky to have them! i know, when all else fails, and i need comfort and help, they will always be there (: (: it struck me so clearly last night when i was disappointed.

xin qing mei mei now :D compared to last night, well, a huge difference! :D

funny how the cause of one's disappointment can make everything go away so simply. cause& effect?

hahahahhaha reminded me of what i told D jokingly the other day, you break it (my heart), you heal it!!! (: wonder how we came to talking about that!

photography is really fun. even taking photos with my brother's (super-good) camera phone, and then editing with some app :D okay, confession, i really love black-and-white alot! it might be an obsession! lol!

besides, photographs bring back memories (: truckloads of them!

and, negativity! go away! you are not wanted in my life.

which is true (: and reading is really an awesome leisurely activity! :D hope i still have time to indugle in that once i pass my job interview and start work! please offer me 1300 and i'll definitely accept!

sometimes, its easier said than done! but try! :D it really isnt that difficult after all

just some comfort and warmth..

hahahahaha i actually laughed when i first read this! lol!

as a kid, i was really terrified of the dark sometimes! lol! even now, i hate to watch horror movies. gives me the creeps. which i know is the intended effect but

i miss my boyfriend. esp difficult when he has this field camp where i cannot hear from him at all! what's more tragic? being able to contact yet you dont contact one another? or being unable to contact yet youre dying to contact one another? almost equally.

Saturday, March 03, 2012

colors and promises.

(:
right now, i shall dream about my future, discover what i like, explore the available options and believe i can do it. im really scared. it's almost as if im taking my a levels all over again! that uncertain and helpless feeling. and coming from me, i gues it could be weird.

DARE TO DREAM. CARPE DIEM (seize the day)
pray. ms N as well as C reminded me to do that (: and. right, dont worry about the Uni tuition fees. tell me how that is possible? im earnest and honestly interested in that course, please give me the scholarship. i swear i dont do slipshod work!

dont ever give up. that's what defines failure. if you fall and stay there, refusing to try again, will you grow and learn?

& really. im not perfect you know. i do get scared. and stressed. hearing I'll-see-you-on-stage-later doesnt actually reassures me! i do have the fear of failure. fear of letting people down. and perhaps, even stronger.

thats what i do! hope. hope for the best. (: many things are beyond our control! as my tour guide likes to say, smile! be happy! regardless of your mood and what (terrible) things which happened to you, the day will still pass! a discouraged person will find his troubles increasing, while a cheerful person will find solutions and opportunities in situations!

which is true. the earth doesnt stop revolving just bcos of you!

i wonder.. if my logic makes sense. cos i know sometimes it doesnt! hahahah just ask my friends!

yes.
am i a happy person? hahahaha i think im quite normal leh! :D ms C seems to have a theory on why im a happy person! hahahah!
my boyfriend was trying to prove it. he said laugh? and i start laughing! hahahahaah! i think i laugh everyday! J said she laughs at all my jokes (what? i joke? lololol) & D and i laugh at like, everything and anything! hahahah at some parts of This Means War (even Harry Potter), no one else was laughing but the two of us! :D
good times.am i happy bcos of the good things in my life? or good things are in my life bcos im happy? this is like the chicken-and-egg-which-comes-first situation! i see good in everything, and it makes life good! and perhaps bcos life is good, i see everything (mostly) in rose-tinted glasses! mentality goes a long way!
&everyone has his own battles to fight. you arent the only one feeling that way.

so pretty.
i love art&craft. i love creating and designing things when i feel like it. and i guess, that's why i dont have the confidence and passion to opt for Design courses! like i told my mother, when the mood strikes or when i feel like making gifts, i'll really enjoy myself! but to design and create for work? on a daily basis?

would you?
i wouldnt. there are things that happen which i absolutely hate. i would want everyone i love to be healthy and alive. but i guess, things always happen for a reason. one thing leads to another! butterfly effect?
contentment!

open your eyes, open your heart. you arent alone.

how the mind and heart works. always a mystery (:

you can have the sky if you want to,