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Tuesday, September 22, 2009

lunch at mac can be enjoyable! well, if you overlook the noise level and the presence of uh, say, certain misfits, mac is a good and near place to hang out.

irked.
the descent is not a comedy, i dont understand how come weimei and heather have so much to say abt it /: i mean, im creeped out by the show. and i didnt even watch the whole movie, as i promised dewi. i seriously, reached my limit. ugh. i even got spooked by some noise coming from the carpark. i think. i hope it is from the carpark. /: and i couldn't even have a good night sleep. ugh.

ecstatic.
watched aliens in the attic ytd! hahaha laughed until stomach pain. oh well, think i'll enjoy it more if im watching with friends tho. heh. comedy is the perfect panacea for messed-up nerves. seriously. it was the perfect thing to drive those creepy crawlers out of my mind.

disillusioned.
it felt like a slap on my face. jolting me awake from the illusion. that someone could actually step out of his comfort zone and think from another person's perspective. climb under his skin and walk around in it. well sth liddat. i mean, how wrong can your opinion be? i thought i was numb to it. but, i guess thats not the case.
can anyone see behind the pseudo-smiles?

idk how tml will be; i hope this quotes will speak to you and give you the encouragement and support you need (:

when one door closes, God will open another window; but we so often look so long and so regretfully upon the closed door that we do not see the ones that are opened for us.

a bend in the road is not the end of the road.. unless you fail to make the turn.

life is not a bed of roses. [ sth ms ng says very often.]

when we are met with obstacles, find another way! persistence! [ your should know who said this (: ]

Thursday, September 10, 2009

pissed him off. agn. should be so proud of myself. i always piss him off. will there come a day he doesnt give me grief? over the simplest thing? i honestly doubt so. i think thats why we're given brothers. a curse. they make you wonder why are you given so much patience. or bad luck. that youre stuck with them, regardless of whatever that may come.

crushed. disappointed. it wasnt supposed to happen. i always hv my emotions under control. not the other way round. but i think it was better tdy. idk. its just safer to have everything under lock and key. open to only myself to go over.. when im ready for it.

tea party. it was.. surprisingly fun. lols. i was supposed to be treated to oreos you know! thanks cordelia. anw, jin fang helped her to buy chocolate cupcakes and .. coffee rolls. the chocolate cupcakes were delicious! thanks jin fang! and the green tea? it just doesnt go well with plum. NOTE: do not ever try pokka's green tea with plum!! seriously. plain water- with ice, tastes awesome. comparatively. that should tell you sth,right? hahahaha laughed alot during the tea party. :D

went to bugis library with sihui. did physics. i did more, i suppose. i hv mountains of questions. well, you cn imagine. they are endless. so physics kind of ended up into debate on the logic behind physics. and to my dismay, i realise sth's wrong with my phone. ugh. ): whats wrong with me and hi tech stuff. we just dont go along.

computers just dont like me. this one doesnt let me upload stuff! D:<

Saturday, September 05, 2009

dont think i've a life.

i really think i'm losing it. sth that had happened 47 months ago should not make you sad right? it had passed too long for someone to feel anything. right?

i want an arguing friend. heather? then cn make crystal feel mature at the same time.. hmmmm, good idea? i want a laughing friend. diana? then her face goes super red. think its most fun to laugh abt her and.. anw. i want a bullying friend. weimei? hahahahah :D that should be fun. i want talking friends- bcos i've too much thoughts. sihui and crystal? maybe sihui more, cos crystal hor.. always mia one! and we tend to talk out of topic more often!
... im going to miss all of you so much when we graduate! why do i live so darned far away?!
by my own choice, i stayed on. i hope its the right decision. and that these memories will last (:

i love gmss. i love my class. i love my friends. i just dont love studying and exams and olevels that much.

it's selfish but i enjoyed myself.

Wednesday, September 02, 2009

it's odd. that i actually feel neutral towards prelims. no worries, no anxiety, no fears. just a slight difference when im studying. i wonder if things will be this way when im studying for the o levels. things should change, right?

isit okay to not feel nervous before an exam? isit okay to feel at ease with someone you dont trust? isit okay to doubt someone whom you trust? isit okay to know it but unable to accept it? isit okay to not follow your instinct? isit okay to regret after not following your instinct, your impulse? isit okay to cherish only after you lose it? isit okay to torment yourself with if-onlys? isit okay to stop asking so much from yourself? isit okay to like it, yet dont dare to want it? isit okay to laugh when you're breaking inside? isit okay..

i saw this uncle on the bus, on my way home. he looks vaguely like my grandpa, well if you only consider his back profile. the same hairstyle, the same white hair, the same hand where he wears his silver watch, the same white shirt with black trousers. hmmm, and i realised my grandpa actually looks more handsome than the uncle i saw on the bus. like really much more handsome!randommmm.

The Carpenter's Tools

Brother Hammer served as the chairman. The other members of the tool belt informed him that he must leave, because he was too noisy. But brother Hammer said, "If I have to leave this carpenter's shop, then brother Gimlet must go too. He's insignificant and makes a very small impression." (A gimlet is a small tool with a screw point, grooved shank, and a cross handle for boring holes).

Little brother Gimlet arose and said, "All right, but brother Screwdriver must go also. You have to turn him around and around to get anywhere with him."

Brother Screwdriver turned to the other tools in the belt and said, "If you wish, I will go, but brother Plane must leave too. All of his work is on the surface; there's no depth to what he does."

To this brother Plane leveled his terse reply, "Well, then, brother Saw will have to depart too. The changes he proposes always cut too deep."

Brother Saw complained, saying, "Brother Ruler will have to withdraw if I leave, for he's always measuring other folks as though he were the only one who is right."

Brother Ruler then surveyed the group and said, "Brother Sandpaper doesn't belong here either. He's rougher than he ought to be, and is always rubbing people the wrong way."

In the midst of the discussion, the Carpenter of Nazareth walked in. He had come to perform his day's work. He put on His tool belt and went to the workbench to make a pulpit. He employed the ruler, the saw, the plane, the hammer, the gimlet, the screwdriver, the sandpaper, and all the other tools. When the day's work was over, the pulpit was finished, and the carpenter went home. All the accusations against each of these tools were absolutely true, yet the carpenter used every one of them. No matter which tool He use, no other tool could have done the work better.

THOUGHT: We are all "tools"" in Jesus' tool box. Each of us has a purpose, ability, and a task to perform.

"For we are God's fellow workers..." (1 Corinthians 3:9a; cf. 12:12ff).

going through the motions.
i just want someone to hug when i cry.