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Monday, August 29, 2011

just bcos its you. do you have that someone? someone who can make you smile, without even putting in the effort? doesnt have to be your other half; it could be your closest friends/family.. are you that someone to somebody else?

tbh, when i think about it, i think i really am quite peaceful. hahahaa not exactly my reactions.. but how im when i face troubles/situations? its not that im confident that i'll solve the problem. but more bcos i know things will work out. not bcos im me, but bcos He is God.

there's just so many things to be thankful about; so many things to smile about! you're alive. you're a complete person. i really cnt say how impt/amazing life is. perhaps, until you've lost someone you love, or youre fighting for your life, you may not know just how precious life is!life has its ups and downs. sometimes your situations arent fantastic. sometimes your future looks so bleak. but hey, its still sth worthwhile, and possible pretty!

there are so many ways your life could get better. but, i know, there are one million and one ways for my life to get worse than the current situation!ups and downs. beginnings and ends. sometimes, life is like a full circle.. you wont end up in a dead end so long as you keep looking and never give up. but its easier said than done, isnt it? find your purpose (((: be it a person, a target.. as long as it gives meaning to life (:

dont be obtuse!

btw, whats your first impulse/inclination? when you've a problem, do you keep it to yourself or find someone to talk to? i think.. im more accustomed to being a listener, so i tend towards the former. i din realise until D mentioned it! my first reaction would not be to find someone, but figure it out on my own.. its sth like, i wont tell you if you dont ask! unless its severe enough!! does that sound healthy? hmmm

hahahhaa and i realise i know alot of confidential stuff!!! lolol. pretty interesting.
rmb i said i'd post this very-pretty image of dessert?! yummm!!!! i prefer looking at gorgeous, delicious food to eating them! LOL.

P/S imagining these desserts and how yummy they taste.. makes you fat?! think i read that somewhere D: why doesnt losing weight work this way then?!so? stop worryinggggg.

Friday, August 26, 2011

dont stop believing;
it goes on and on and on and on. do you know that teacher's day is coming! went to buy teacher's day presents (: hahahah as P said, its quite an awesome feeling to keep buying and NOT having to pay! LOL. and to carry! hahahaha! the guys were like the maids :D lolol. so many bags of wrapped gifts! mostly are cushions :D

hope they will love the gifts! the cushion is really nice to huggggg!!!!!

doesnt this picture look so.. retro and vintage? :D love it! hahahaahah! looking forward to meeting my clique soon (((:
life simplified.

really, isnt the a summary of life?! except, whats "survive"? it certainly entails alot more than just the word! every stage of life, we face different challenges i guess (: the meaning of "survive" would change as we move on with life ((:

simplify things when you feel like you cant breathe. you often complicate things too much (:so keep your head high, keep your chin up, and most importantly, keep smiling, bcos life's a beautiful thing and there's so much to smile about.

- marilyn monroe
love her quotes. hahaha but, they are usually more relevant to the girls' point of view! lolol. life is pretty, when you focus on the miracles and wonderful things. however, reality isnt a fantasy, so you cnt ignore all the negative and ugly side of life (escapism?)!

but imperfections and flaws make the good stand out, dont they? (:colouring your world

someone told me last sunday, "wah i think u gt talent be psychologist leh talk to ppl can make ppl feel btr"! i wonder if he meant it. lolol. (:

you told me once, youre so nice that i cant believe you are real. i still rmb. even what happened which caused you to feel that way. do you still rmb?

i tend to believe in the good of people. i do try to understand people. it gets tiring somedays, but i do think its worth it :D i think.. its more tiring doubting people and their intentions, dont you think? life isnt easy; there really is pretty pointless to make it even harder for yourself!
i guess, we are the harshest critics of ourselves! im not perfect. i wont even admit that im closer to perfect than imperfect! bcos, im not. i dont really believe in horoscope. i think, they are pretty.. rose-tinted. lol. they usually sound quite.. refined! for one, libra-ians? we are unreliable. LOL. that disturbed me more than "superficial/vain"! i wont say im super trustworthy, but unreliable??? and those are the bad traits of libra-ians :O
i think, people trust me more than i trust myself. and have more faith in me than i've in myself.
half the time, idk what expression im wearing! H once said she din know whats smiling/happy eyes until she saw the way i laughed! LOL. and there are times im frowning and idk it! and, sometimes, i really dk how to react.

im really not that nice. why do people think im nice? i dont see myself quite the way others see me! and i really dont think im doing much ): why are you quite touched by my efforts?
apparently, writing diary/blogging is good! for one, it helps your English (im actually quite skeptical abt that!) and, makes you reflect, and possibly make you a better person! true?

i always spend ages writing/blogging! LOL. its like, my quiet time. (: and i cherish the time even more now, since i cant read books for quiet time alr!


dessert. omg, i want!!! dont they look awesome?
i accidentally deleted this pretty image of chocolate cookie topped with whipped cream, chocolate syrup and ferror rocher! ): OMG, looks damn nice! will upload it agn another time!everyone needs to feel cared for sometimes (((:
and, i think you need it. really. bcos, im really a pretty difficult person to handle l: will you? i was initially afraid the photo(s) wont appear nice. but now, im actually quite curious how it looks like! lolol. and i cnt believe.. youre crazy, you know? (((:


P/S if. if i change myself, would i still be me? would you want me to change?

Saturday, August 20, 2011

just smile;
nothing can break that. how's your life? have you asked yourself that today?

had a talk by D.Yeo. um. i suppose it was to inspire us to work hard for A's! suffer for the next 70 days and reap the benefits over the nxt 70 (?) years? he told us about the power of vision, the power of discipline & the power of belief.

i do believe in what he says. i really do. but more than anything, i believe everyone has a limit. ofcos we all work hard. we must. A's is the most impt exam so far. but.. it just doesnt make sense for us to.. go through hell just for the cert. i mean, youre human. you arent a computer! studying smart is really important. and, you do need sleep and rest!

brightening the grey world~

hahahahah idk if im obsessed or what. its usually not difficult to make me happy. bcos, simple. i dont believe in being upset.

i mean, wth, what for do you make yourself so sad? the world doesnt stop rotating bcos you stop smiling! you arent that impt! but youre- to ppl who care about you. why would you want to make them worry and feel upset when youre? ofcos, this doesnt mean you should be an idiot/cretin and keep everything to yourself!

heh, i love seeing little kids! i mean, they are so cute!!!!! seeing them (among others) just brightens my day :D esp, this cute little boy who was walking barefooted around Serangoon mrt! :D ahhh! so cuteeee!!! hahahah his hands are so small :D

so, what brightens your day? know what you want.
you say i dont understand, you say i wont. you say its too late, you say you've changed. i dont even know if you read this, S. perhaps as C says, i really should.. leave you alone. there's probably nth (much) i cn do which will help.

but, you need to know, you arent alone. you've friends. you do. just bcos not everyone asks about you everyday, it doesnt mean no one cares! everyone has her own life, the same way you do. you say im a people-person. people look for me and actually see me. im not. i really dont have much friends. but the people i call friends? they really are friends, people i actually talk to! C says, your statement wasnt fair. why, i asked her. she says, bcos i work hard for those friendships. friendships are a 2-way road. it wont lead to a destination if there's a roadblock on one lane! read that?

bcos Heaven knows.are these diasies? diasies, the flowers you love?

pretty?!!! hahahaha! they are so pretty. there are so many amazing creations around us! Amen (:dessert! im dying to get dessert D: chocolate lava cake with vanilla icecream.. omg, i want it so much!!!! if i could leave my house at 10pm, i might just meet up with Y for supper!! *looks at clock*its lemon, not yellow lime, you idiot :Dthe beauty of language.


i think writers.. copy one another in one way or another! D: bcos, i distinctly rmb coming across the same line before elsewhere!!!! ): but, i think that means this line is really beautiful! (((:


P/S do you rmb youre going to call me tonight, C? (; anw, i really want to celebrate her 18th with her ): i really wish i could make it on the 10th sept night )): (prelims, go away!) i hope i can make it up for her with morning instead of night!


Thursday, August 11, 2011

get outside everyday, and open your eyes and heart;
miracles are waiting everywhere! happiness is priceless.
every good memory, every good laugh- dont forget it! remember them! thats life (:

life may not not be tied with a bow, but its a gift!
so true.

sometimes, we grumble at life, for throwing so many rocks and challenges at us! but when we get this amazing thing in our lives.. we dont think we deserve it! i dont think its real. keep reminding me, wont you? (:rmb what i said in the previous post? just ytd? its really amazing how the Daily Bread (similar to daily devotion!) reflects what happened to me the very same day! who says God doesnt exist? i believe He does! and ytd, it was about how we should not do too much and wear too many hats! really. sometimes, i offer help.. its bcos i want to. it doesnt mean i've to all the time and i owe it to you! (gosh! dont i sound like KL?!) be grateful and nice!
p/s you should know you really are crossing your line when people are feeling angry on my behalf at the way you treat/talk to me! so? dont be an ass!

He exists :D i try my best to be nice! bcos i know everyone may not be having a nice day everyday! it may sound ridiculous and futile, but i really rather be nice than nasty.

i wont deny it- i AM weird! (everyone is, actually! in his own way!) but.. i really really dislike it when people have that face, that tone in their voice. it feels like they only see the results, and not the person, or the effort (ha! dont be shocked!) put in.

as much as im shocked with my results, im even more shocked w C's note on my script! "look! you have managed to meet expectations! bet you didnt think you could. but i know you can." WOW!

when was the last time you looked beyond and into the person youre looking at, talking to?

sth more light hearted~
pretty?! hahahaha! i paint my nails when i've the mood and time! :D so random. but no matter how much time i have, or how happy im, i wont do that to my nails! lol! i'd destroy them in no time D: hhahah H was crazy! she suggested stickers and markers for nail art?! i think we were laughing too loudly on the trains just now! hahahahaha! but nvm, we are happy~
getting my braces off this saturday! freedom to my teeth?! hhahahaha! idiot. lolol. R, J and P were scaring me on how the process would be like! R even asked if i need enesthetic for the removal of braces?!!! AHHH! funny people! (;long pretty hair! hahaha! okay la, not saying mine is! but i was quite happy when H said she was in love w my long hair :D that meant she saw the fb album (; hope i'll see her soon! with her long pretty hair down- literally and figuratively! :Dspoiled brat. LOL. my brother (being the youngest) is the baby of my family! and my sister got so angry at him. cos he was hogging the fan, uncaring of whether the whole family needs it ornt! my sis was so shocked that i always let him have the fan in the living room! even tho i agree that he needs some trg during NS.. im not sure if i bear to see him in army! D: he's still my kid brother! altho he's not a kid anymore!places to drop by! *gives up on coding* http://love-collects.blogspot.com/ & http://leilockheart.me/ - they have awesome pretty pictures!! http://collectivewritings.wordpress.com/ has inspiring essay-ish posts (:i tell myself that everyday;


Wednesday, August 10, 2011

today: be happy
tomorrow: be happy
everyday: be happy ofcos it isnt easy to be happy. if it were, then 'happy' probably din mean happy already. there will be people who bring you down. but, if you dont let them win, youre a fighter (:

"smile. just to let others know that youre stronger tdy than youre the day before." (;sometimes, i think i dont really answer the question- all i know is its very easy to be happy these days.
hahahahahahahah i think i might be a lil evil.. but i was laughing when C kidnapped my phone and started smsing. even tho im not sure if i did the right thing by letting her have freedom during those minutes! she was serious (:just saying, i like the old ndp songs. it really isnt bcos of nostaglia, but more of, the old song lyrics speak of my feelings more than the new ones.

how often do you stop everything youre doing when you hear a song which describes exactly what youre feeling or brings back memories?

went Esplanade and Marina Square, fully intending to watch the fireworks! but, the atmostphere was... the crowd. the way people just squeeze towards you! D: all my friends and i were so sian, unable to get our spirits up to enjoy the performance! and so, we did the right thing by leaving :D

it may seem silly and stupid, since we were under the hot sun for ages (6 hours?!) and then we decided to leave! but, hey, it was really for the better! we enjoyed the aircon (which was awesome!) and laughed much more than we did under the ridiculous hot sun (the wind was very nice but..) i guess, enduring and knowing firsthand how it really din suit us, caused us to make the right choice! which, really reminds me of studies. :O really. (: dont be afraid to make the decision to repeat. i think it really makes less sense to continue, knowing you arent ready and making yourself so unhappy.
make the choices which make you happy! (: i dont want to care. i tell myself that, but i dont listen.
i worry alot. idk. over my brother, my family. my classmates, my friends. the special people in my family. i really worry alot. C tells me to stop worrying. stop trying to help. concentrate on my work and A levels! but..which is precisely why i want to help. why i cant stand seeing people upset, unhappy, stressed. even when i know theres nth much i can do.. i still want to try. but i know very well, i may not be the right person to cheer someone up over studies. from past and present experiences. *sighs* BUT I STILL WANT TO HELP. sheesh. i think i got my stubbornness from my dad! (:dont judge people. you never know what they have gone through!



///

i was shocked. more-than-just-shocked! J spends ard 150$ a week! which is really, more than my monthly expenses :O wow. hahahahaha its quite funny how C responded and the rest of us (esp W and J) reacted when she said "guys! J here has spoiled the market! he buys presents for his gf every week! ... *pause* 50 to 70$ each time!" hahahahha J's mouth literally drop open! lolol. i hope they last. but i think his gf should/would actually want more of J's time and attention, rather than expensive gifts :O and he actually left his gf with his parents last night :O hahaha listening to J talk, really makes me really shocked and amused! and, worried too. haiyo.

and, awesome friends (((: receiving a text by H telling me to jy! and a tired-and-stressed W!

OHCRAP. time to go back to studies. everyday, be happy (: thinking of happy memories works too :D



btw, why am i not shocked that my printer has problem? D:

im very veryyy lucky. i've special someone and people in my life (: plural! with Him, them and a happy attitude, i believe i can last through this year! i wont give up (:


with a thankful heart,


Saturday, August 06, 2011

i think i'll try defying gravity,
and you wont bring me down.
according to the lunar calender, today is the 7th day of the 7th month. meaning? chinese valentines! and i only know this few days ago! tsk tsk. i wonder.. why is the english Valentines more known than the chinese valentines? i like the wind. i like the scenery. i like the fact that we have such a long wkend (trying to forget abt the stack of work plus upcoming tests) if only i could have a good book and a cup of ridiculously sweet iceblended coffee with caramel.. well, i dont! but im making do with Pretty Little Liars and chocolate icecream! everyone deserves a treat now and then! warmth. different people, different emotions, different memories. what do you think of when you see this?
i felt like i just walked back into the past when D came over to sit with me during lecture! it was as if we were back to the good old secondary school days! when we can really.. not do anything in school and not regret it! how D and i would crap during lesson. do ridiculous stuff when we are bored, eg, measuring eyelash! hahahaha! how any one of the Six would do stupid things. together.

W, rmb the white hair incident at the library? im sure S and i wont forget! (((:

could we preserve memories?

btw, i wonder what happen to our rings! i miss us together.

pretty?
some things still shine in the dark. even when we are down, there will be something reminding us why we even try hanging on in the first place. P, rmb what you told me? hang on.

i wonder if we'll get to see fireworks on the 9th! and when we'll see one another agn ): as compared to last year, i think all of us have been seeing one another less! would absence make the hearts fonder? LOL.
and im truly relieved to know that A's r/s problem has appeared to pass! tsk, i really feel like strangling his gf D:
and isit just me or do we just have this insane urge of wanting to strangle the gfs of our friends bcos they are being unreasonable and insensitive? hahahah i know H has this urge too! violent tendencies! :D i think its subjective. but on average, how many smses does a teen send a month? is 10 000 really alot? :O hahahaha tbh, i've no idea at all where all my smses went to! and nobody seems to believe that i'll be able to cut down ): apparently S is considered a reason!


happpyy. there's just sth abt you! i cnt help but think what do others see. what they think. why do they always tell me (along the line) 'so sweeettt!' ? or have this funny expression on their face! i dont understand. but i only know im happy! is that enough?

btw, i still find banana milk tea a weird combination! and i cnt believe i tried a sip!

///// have you ever thought that no matter what you do, its never enough? that why cant others understand you? why cant they put themselves in your shoes?


i know i do. especially when it comes to my parents. but it reminds me of what my UG teacher once told us. the only reason why we ask and expect things of you, its bcos we trust you. we know youll get things done. if we do not think you have that capability, we'll not let you do anything. and i try to convince myself, maybe thats true.



look at the right places, youll find sth that will cheer you up! promise.

apparently, writing diary/blogging is good! for one, it helps your English (im actually quite skeptical abt that!) and, makes you reflect, and possibly make you a better person! true?

i always spend ages writing/blogging! LOL. its like, my quiet time. (: and i cherish the time even more now, since i cant read books for quiet time alr!


dessert. omg, i want!!! dont they look awesome?
i accidentally deleted this pretty image of chocolate cookie topped with whipped cream, chocolate syrup and ferror rocher! ): OMG, looks damn nice! will upload it agn another time!everyone needs to feel cared for sometimes (((:
and, i think you need it. really. bcos, im really a pretty difficult person to handle l: will you? i was initially afraid the photo(s) wont appear nice. but now, im actually quite curious how it looks like! lolol. and i cnt believe.. youre crazy, you know? (((:


P/S if. if i change myself, would i still be me? would you want me to change?

Saturday, August 20, 2011

just smile;
nothing can break that. how's your life? have you asked yourself that today?

had a talk by D.Yeo. um. i suppose it was to inspire us to work hard for A's! suffer for the next 70 days and reap the benefits over the nxt 70 (?) years? he told us about the power of vision, the power of discipline & the power of belief.

i do believe in what he says. i really do. but more than anything, i believe everyone has a limit. ofcos we all work hard. we must. A's is the most impt exam so far. but.. it just doesnt make sense for us to.. go through hell just for the cert. i mean, youre human. you arent a computer! studying smart is really important. and, you do need sleep and rest!

brightening the grey world~

hahahahah idk if im obsessed or what. its usually not difficult to make me happy. bcos, simple. i dont believe in being upset.

i mean, wth, what for do you make yourself so sad? the world doesnt stop rotating bcos you stop smiling! you arent that impt! but youre- to ppl who care about you. why would you want to make them worry and feel upset when youre? ofcos, this doesnt mean you should be an idiot/cretin and keep everything to yourself!

heh, i love seeing little kids! i mean, they are so cute!!!!! seeing them (among others) just brightens my day :D esp, this cute little boy who was walking barefooted around Serangoon mrt! :D ahhh! so cuteeee!!! hahahah his hands are so small :D

so, what brightens your day? know what you want.
you say i dont understand, you say i wont. you say its too late, you say you've changed. i dont even know if you read this, S. perhaps as C says, i really should.. leave you alone. there's probably nth (much) i cn do which will help.

but, you need to know, you arent alone. you've friends. you do. just bcos not everyone asks about you everyday, it doesnt mean no one cares! everyone has her own life, the same way you do. you say im a people-person. people look for me and actually see me. im not. i really dont have much friends. but the people i call friends? they really are friends, people i actually talk to! C says, your statement wasnt fair. why, i asked her. she says, bcos i work hard for those friendships. friendships are a 2-way road. it wont lead to a destination if there's a roadblock on one lane! read that?

bcos Heaven knows.are these diasies? diasies, the flowers you love?

pretty?!!! hahahaha! they are so pretty. there are so many amazing creations around us! Amen (:dessert! im dying to get dessert D: chocolate lava cake with vanilla icecream.. omg, i want it so much!!!! if i could leave my house at 10pm, i might just meet up with Y for supper!! *looks at clock*its lemon, not yellow lime, you idiot :Dthe beauty of language.


i think writers.. copy one another in one way or another! D: bcos, i distinctly rmb coming across the same line before elsewhere!!!! ): but, i think that means this line is really beautiful! (((:


P/S do you rmb youre going to call me tonight, C? (; anw, i really want to celebrate her 18th with her ): i really wish i could make it on the 10th sept night )): (prelims, go away!) i hope i can make it up for her with morning instead of night!


Thursday, August 11, 2011

get outside everyday, and open your eyes and heart;
miracles are waiting everywhere! happiness is priceless.
every good memory, every good laugh- dont forget it! remember them! thats life (:

life may not not be tied with a bow, but its a gift!
so true.

sometimes, we grumble at life, for throwing so many rocks and challenges at us! but when we get this amazing thing in our lives.. we dont think we deserve it! i dont think its real. keep reminding me, wont you? (:rmb what i said in the previous post? just ytd? its really amazing how the Daily Bread (similar to daily devotion!) reflects what happened to me the very same day! who says God doesnt exist? i believe He does! and ytd, it was about how we should not do too much and wear too many hats! really. sometimes, i offer help.. its bcos i want to. it doesnt mean i've to all the time and i owe it to you! (gosh! dont i sound like KL?!) be grateful and nice!
p/s you should know you really are crossing your line when people are feeling angry on my behalf at the way you treat/talk to me! so? dont be an ass!

He exists :D i try my best to be nice! bcos i know everyone may not be having a nice day everyday! it may sound ridiculous and futile, but i really rather be nice than nasty.

i wont deny it- i AM weird! (everyone is, actually! in his own way!) but.. i really really dislike it when people have that face, that tone in their voice. it feels like they only see the results, and not the person, or the effort (ha! dont be shocked!) put in.

as much as im shocked with my results, im even more shocked w C's note on my script! "look! you have managed to meet expectations! bet you didnt think you could. but i know you can." WOW!

when was the last time you looked beyond and into the person youre looking at, talking to?

sth more light hearted~
pretty?! hahahaha! i paint my nails when i've the mood and time! :D so random. but no matter how much time i have, or how happy im, i wont do that to my nails! lol! i'd destroy them in no time D: hhahah H was crazy! she suggested stickers and markers for nail art?! i think we were laughing too loudly on the trains just now! hahahahaha! but nvm, we are happy~
getting my braces off this saturday! freedom to my teeth?! hhahahaha! idiot. lolol. R, J and P were scaring me on how the process would be like! R even asked if i need enesthetic for the removal of braces?!!! AHHH! funny people! (;long pretty hair! hahaha! okay la, not saying mine is! but i was quite happy when H said she was in love w my long hair :D that meant she saw the fb album (; hope i'll see her soon! with her long pretty hair down- literally and figuratively! :Dspoiled brat. LOL. my brother (being the youngest) is the baby of my family! and my sister got so angry at him. cos he was hogging the fan, uncaring of whether the whole family needs it ornt! my sis was so shocked that i always let him have the fan in the living room! even tho i agree that he needs some trg during NS.. im not sure if i bear to see him in army! D: he's still my kid brother! altho he's not a kid anymore!places to drop by! *gives up on coding* http://love-collects.blogspot.com/ & http://leilockheart.me/ - they have awesome pretty pictures!! http://collectivewritings.wordpress.com/ has inspiring essay-ish posts (:i tell myself that everyday;


Wednesday, August 10, 2011

today: be happy
tomorrow: be happy
everyday: be happy ofcos it isnt easy to be happy. if it were, then 'happy' probably din mean happy already. there will be people who bring you down. but, if you dont let them win, youre a fighter (:

"smile. just to let others know that youre stronger tdy than youre the day before." (;sometimes, i think i dont really answer the question- all i know is its very easy to be happy these days.
hahahahahahahah i think i might be a lil evil.. but i was laughing when C kidnapped my phone and started smsing. even tho im not sure if i did the right thing by letting her have freedom during those minutes! she was serious (:just saying, i like the old ndp songs. it really isnt bcos of nostaglia, but more of, the old song lyrics speak of my feelings more than the new ones.

how often do you stop everything youre doing when you hear a song which describes exactly what youre feeling or brings back memories?

went Esplanade and Marina Square, fully intending to watch the fireworks! but, the atmostphere was... the crowd. the way people just squeeze towards you! D: all my friends and i were so sian, unable to get our spirits up to enjoy the performance! and so, we did the right thing by leaving :D

it may seem silly and stupid, since we were under the hot sun for ages (6 hours?!) and then we decided to leave! but, hey, it was really for the better! we enjoyed the aircon (which was awesome!) and laughed much more than we did under the ridiculous hot sun (the wind was very nice but..) i guess, enduring and knowing firsthand how it really din suit us, caused us to make the right choice! which, really reminds me of studies. :O really. (: dont be afraid to make the decision to repeat. i think it really makes less sense to continue, knowing you arent ready and making yourself so unhappy.
make the choices which make you happy! (: i dont want to care. i tell myself that, but i dont listen.
i worry alot. idk. over my brother, my family. my classmates, my friends. the special people in my family. i really worry alot. C tells me to stop worrying. stop trying to help. concentrate on my work and A levels! but..which is precisely why i want to help. why i cant stand seeing people upset, unhappy, stressed. even when i know theres nth much i can do.. i still want to try. but i know very well, i may not be the right person to cheer someone up over studies. from past and present experiences. *sighs* BUT I STILL WANT TO HELP. sheesh. i think i got my stubbornness from my dad! (:dont judge people. you never know what they have gone through!



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i was shocked. more-than-just-shocked! J spends ard 150$ a week! which is really, more than my monthly expenses :O wow. hahahahaha its quite funny how C responded and the rest of us (esp W and J) reacted when she said "guys! J here has spoiled the market! he buys presents for his gf every week! ... *pause* 50 to 70$ each time!" hahahahha J's mouth literally drop open! lolol. i hope they last. but i think his gf should/would actually want more of J's time and attention, rather than expensive gifts :O and he actually left his gf with his parents last night :O hahaha listening to J talk, really makes me really shocked and amused! and, worried too. haiyo.

and, awesome friends (((: receiving a text by H telling me to jy! and a tired-and-stressed W!

OHCRAP. time to go back to studies. everyday, be happy (: thinking of happy memories works too :D



btw, why am i not shocked that my printer has problem? D:

im very veryyy lucky. i've special someone and people in my life (: plural! with Him, them and a happy attitude, i believe i can last through this year! i wont give up (:


with a thankful heart,


Saturday, August 06, 2011

i think i'll try defying gravity,
and you wont bring me down.
according to the lunar calender, today is the 7th day of the 7th month. meaning? chinese valentines! and i only know this few days ago! tsk tsk. i wonder.. why is the english Valentines more known than the chinese valentines? i like the wind. i like the scenery. i like the fact that we have such a long wkend (trying to forget abt the stack of work plus upcoming tests) if only i could have a good book and a cup of ridiculously sweet iceblended coffee with caramel.. well, i dont! but im making do with Pretty Little Liars and chocolate icecream! everyone deserves a treat now and then! warmth. different people, different emotions, different memories. what do you think of when you see this?
i felt like i just walked back into the past when D came over to sit with me during lecture! it was as if we were back to the good old secondary school days! when we can really.. not do anything in school and not regret it! how D and i would crap during lesson. do ridiculous stuff when we are bored, eg, measuring eyelash! hahahaha! how any one of the Six would do stupid things. together.

W, rmb the white hair incident at the library? im sure S and i wont forget! (((:

could we preserve memories?

btw, i wonder what happen to our rings! i miss us together.

pretty?
some things still shine in the dark. even when we are down, there will be something reminding us why we even try hanging on in the first place. P, rmb what you told me? hang on.

i wonder if we'll get to see fireworks on the 9th! and when we'll see one another agn ): as compared to last year, i think all of us have been seeing one another less! would absence make the hearts fonder? LOL.
and im truly relieved to know that A's r/s problem has appeared to pass! tsk, i really feel like strangling his gf D:
and isit just me or do we just have this insane urge of wanting to strangle the gfs of our friends bcos they are being unreasonable and insensitive? hahahah i know H has this urge too! violent tendencies! :D i think its subjective. but on average, how many smses does a teen send a month? is 10 000 really alot? :O hahahaha tbh, i've no idea at all where all my smses went to! and nobody seems to believe that i'll be able to cut down ): apparently S is considered a reason!


happpyy. there's just sth abt you! i cnt help but think what do others see. what they think. why do they always tell me (along the line) 'so sweeettt!' ? or have this funny expression on their face! i dont understand. but i only know im happy! is that enough?

btw, i still find banana milk tea a weird combination! and i cnt believe i tried a sip!

///// have you ever thought that no matter what you do, its never enough? that why cant others understand you? why cant they put themselves in your shoes?


i know i do. especially when it comes to my parents. but it reminds me of what my UG teacher once told us. the only reason why we ask and expect things of you, its bcos we trust you. we know youll get things done. if we do not think you have that capability, we'll not let you do anything. and i try to convince myself, maybe thats true.



look at the right places, youll find sth that will cheer you up! promise.


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