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Sunday, September 12, 2010

*happily munching chocolate!* (: (: (:

somewhat celebrated crystal's 17th birthday ytd! ^^ could have been alooooot better tho! LOL. and crystal, please! you better rmb your celebration this year okay! im sure all of us wont forget, considering we suffered the trauma of cockcroaches running and flying all over the basement! (okay, that might be a little over-statement, but thats my point. cockcraches! :l) and hahahaha all that pink in the reading room! i bet you wont forget that! ^^

im wishing you a blessed and happy birthday (cliche but heartfelt okay!) in advance here, on my blog (: bcos im not confident that i can get time away to post (yes, even a simple post)! ): but im sure youll have er, fun reading the text im going to send! hahahaha! trust me, it'll be super long! heh!

i cnt honestly say i understand what youre feeling and going through. entirely, that is. but, if kicking and throwing your slipper at the idiotic door (that keeps making funny, annoying noises!) helps, i'll always pick them up. promise. (:

ajisen on friday! w gabrielle, aiksheng, junjie, shichin, wesley. there's some sort of miscommunication right at the start! we walked all over PS! lol. like retards. okay, maybe not! and aiksheng! i we hvnt see your gf before leh! and stop comparing heights la -.- idiot. lol. service at ajisen was rather horrible. but that made the whole day memorable. LOL. we literally camped there! waited 50 mins (?) for our "main dish", which nvr quite came. and laughed at how the "aeroplanes" seem to suan junjie! and among other silly stuff! (: (:

'No matter how far you may have strayed and how lost you may be, He came to seek and to save you.'

this sentence touched me in an odd way. it reminded me of my sec 1 days, before i came to gmss (or even heard of Him!) and all the way till now. events and things which happen aft that day, really changed my life. i became more mature (i hope. lol), my belief towards how a family should be changed, the way i used to see your changed. i endured. but the hurt and anger and guilt lingered. maybe, maybe its all part of His plan. until now, im still trying to accept things, to leave things all in His hand and try my best not to do things my own way. perhaps one day, i can really let go. perhaps, that day will come soon (:

coincidences. i dont believe in coincidences. but idk wth they mean this time. im already trying really hard to stop hoping and stop expecting.

idk where the hell is my EoM. changing of second area (again), new scope, tutor losing my EoM (telling me that only aft two weeks), still not getting my EoM back (and she's demanding new drafts again) and deadline drawing near. what. the. hell. ):

and im going to focus really hard to study these few weeks. so, im steering clear of your blog. i dont think i can survive a repetition of mye. that two weeks were awful and horrible. i really dont want to go through that again. i honestly dk how much i can stand it. and you may not even know it, do you? how long will this feeling last? it has been what, almost 4 years? will the feeling fade? has it ever been mutual? or, was i the only one?

CHINESE WORDS APPEAR, SO WHAT HAPPEN TO MY 'ENTER'?? )':

你答应送我三个愿望

第一个希望你能健康开朗

第二个希望我能更懂体谅

第三个希望我们永远有话讲