Thursday, September 30, 2010
the last day of september.then comes the dreadful october.damn. i really hate it. but there's really no shortcuts in life, is there? no one will ever say that life will be void of obstacles, but we can be assured that it'll be worthwhile.
we did this "exercise" during econs tutorial ytd. its quite.. LOL!
align the bottom of your palms and place your palms tgt.
look for the hand w (more) shorter fingers.
keep that hand stretched out before you.
will those fingers to grow.
say GROW (x3) aloud and really believe it.
compare the hands again, its really longer! lol. you can hear my class really saying grow and laughing nonstop. my tutor was trying to prove to us that as long as we believe in something and stop telling ourselves its impossible, i wont be able to do it? we will be able to do it.
i like that image alot. but i wonder if the words can be read.. everyone has troubles and woes. but there are reasons for them. they allow us to proceed on with life, perhaps through growing, maturing and learning. there are purposes to our obstacles. we just dk them yet.
but God knows. (:
You are my strength when im weak.
*typing love*
lol. idk what to type now. ytd was a rather great day. short day in school. successfully studied physics. crapped with my brother (who suddenly had alot of lame jokes). enjoyed the sms conversations alot alot. but my sleep was crappy. ugh. i still feel like sleeping now. i had what? 6 hours of sleep. *yawns*
LOVEYOU. LIFE STILL GOES ON.
Sunday, September 26, 2010
honestly. my mother is a terrible cook. she made lots of culinary mistakes! like toasting food until they are hard as rocks. like cooking food that are still cold in the middle. her definition of a proper meal is maggie mee. her definition of a proper soup is water with alot alot alot of veg! but i love to see her cooking. (: it makes me feel loved because she makes the effort. i can really see that she tries really hard. especially when she has a daughter who doesnt do anything, but keep laughing at her. lol. i laughed damn alot this morning! like, what? almost non-stop the whole while she cooked! she prepared french fries, otah, fried chicken? almost every item was cooked at least twice. LOL. we nearly cried from laughing too much when we were in the kitchen.
IM GOING TO BE HAPPY. GO AWAY, MY TROUBLES AND UNHAPPINESS. IM GOING TO IGNORE YOUR FOR GOOD.
a day without you is like a year without rain. self-imposed 'cold turkey' is almost meaningless. i think of you everyday.
Wednesday, September 22, 2010
just an emo post
idk what came over me. i really dont. is this normal? im confused. im lost. im disoriented. im terrified. im broken. i guess, i just need someone to tell me, everything is going to be fine. even if it isnt going to be.
will the moon shine its light to guide me this time?
Saturday, September 18, 2010
這一種加油人人都需要
手牽手我們一起賽跑
yes, promos' coming. yes, we get tired of studying. yes, we feel like our efforts are getting us nowhere. yes, we feel hopeless. yes, we feel like giving up. and so? do we really give up right now and there? no one promised that life would be easy. no one promised that our lives will be free of troubles, woes, regrets. there're times when we dont see any reason to move on. there're times when we feel like we are alone. there're times when we feel like things will never work out. there're always always always times like this.
....
we will never know happiness after feeling pain;
or blessings after loss;
or success after failures.
....
promos is what? 2 weeks away. im sure we can deal with these few weeks. im really really really certain.
problems are what? nothing is too big that He can't solve. there's nothing that will keep friends away from helping you as long as you let us.
....
....
I LOVE YOU, SO 加油! (: (: (:
dedicated to whoever chances upon this (:
Friday, September 17, 2010
i. think. im. crazy.
LOL
im supposed to be doing my gp work. yes, now! but damn ): my brain dead laaaa l: *sighs* there's still physics and math! so discouraging.
and then.. i went to google images. LOL. i tell you, i've formed this unhealthy obsession about googling images! now i've like 134 (and still increasing) images which i dl just afew months ago?? crazy right! hahahah!
then i saw a couple of images which really make me
optimistic! SO im going to upload them and hope they will encourage you too! SMILE AND ALL THE BEST! youre not alone, okay? (: (: (:
happiness and peace and hope are choices. make the right choice (:
simple "rules" of life (: (:
a catalogue of ridiculous & random things that happen
just the week alone! {} there's this guy whom many in class suan and tease ALOT! someone said that this guy is both perverse AND perverted! so the guy quickly said he was perverse, but not pervert! which.. go check dictionary. (: (: (: hint: choose the meaning that has the worst connotation
{} while Q-ing for food, suddenly my phone rang. the person said: "huiqing? can help me buy cuttlefish? *laughs* " well, firstly, i dont have caller id (so idk who that weirdo is!) and wth! cuttlefish?!!! who calls and asks that person to buy cuttlefish???
{} i see D like, a million times a day! :D we're faattteeeeeeeddddd! lol
{} C passed her own daily bread to me accidentally! oh ): i've like. three daily breads with me now??? am i supp to read the same piece thrice a day? (: (: (:
{} a guy in class wants to buy a birthday present for this girl he-has-yet-to-confess to. so he seeked help.. w the entire class. LOL. so now, the whole class knows abt it and jokes abt it all day looonnggg! deserve it.. not? lol
{} my ct/ pw tutor/ physics tutor has this er.. people sitting infront of her should have umbrellas ready la. liquid stuff with fly when she's talking :O dangerous!!! (ohdear, im being so mean but honest!)
{} what do you call a person who goes around telling "oh, she's so irritating and annoying! how can anyone stand her!" but is actually an equally irritating person? a hypocrite probably. how i wish i could tell her that! l:
{} i think i've a more active sms life than social life!
{} i have classmates who are super fussy w food! even worse than me. see, (despite being called bunneh) i actually detest carrots and the farmer's favourite lor mee! one is actually "allergic" to milk! :O
{} C is oolllddddd now! LOL
{} im going to google about Winchester Mystery House cos apparently, its constructed to confuse ghosts!! interesting right?!
{} i smile like a idiot when i read your msg!
{} i dont like printers. printers dont like me. hi-tech stuff just dont like me! what can i do ): lol (and no, i dont go around smashing stuff when they dont listen to me, okay?!!!)
so, tv says that it is very simple to be happy. you can be really happy when youre merely playing w little animals. well thats not true! i'll first worry about the animals hurting me (like bite me or sth!) and then i worry abt accidentally killing them! how to be happy??!!
i suddenly feel that my grandfather is really strong. despite his significant age. lol. hey! i think thats what people mean by old people are treasures (translate to chinese!) maybe one day, i'll be that strong (: (: (:
on a happy note.. I FEEL LIKE EATING FISH AND CHIPS!! & I FEEL LIKE HUGGING SOMEONE! who wants to volunteer? lol
if i love talking to you, thinking of you, knowing whats going on in your life, complaining to you, joking with you, laughing at you, suaning you and everything thats gotta do with you, what does it mean?
perhaps, whats most important is savour the moment.
Sunday, September 12, 2010
*happily munching chocolate!* (: (: (:
somewhat celebrated crystal's 17th birthday ytd! ^^ could have been alooooot better tho! LOL. and crystal, please! you better rmb your celebration this year okay! im sure all of us wont forget, considering we suffered the trauma of cockcroaches running and flying all over the basement! (okay, that might be a little over-statement, but thats my point. cockcraches! :l) and hahahaha all that pink in the reading room! i bet you wont forget that! ^^
im wishing you a blessed and happy birthday (cliche but heartfelt okay!) in advance here, on my blog (: bcos im not confident that i can get time away to post (yes, even a simple post)! ): but im sure youll have er, fun reading the text im going to send! hahahaha! trust me, it'll be super long! heh!
i cnt honestly say i understand what youre feeling and going through. entirely, that is. but, if kicking and throwing your slipper at the idiotic door (that keeps making funny, annoying noises!) helps, i'll always pick them up. promise. (:
ajisen on friday! w gabrielle, aiksheng, junjie, shichin, wesley. there's some sort of miscommunication right at the start! we walked all over PS! lol. like retards. okay, maybe not! and aiksheng! i we hvnt see your gf before leh! and stop comparing heights la -.- idiot. lol. service at ajisen was rather horrible. but that made the whole day memorable. LOL. we literally camped there! waited 50 mins (?) for our "main dish", which nvr quite came. and laughed at how the "aeroplanes" seem to suan junjie! and among other silly stuff! (: (:
'No matter how far you may have strayed and how lost you may be, He came to seek and to save you.'
this sentence touched me in an odd way. it reminded me of my sec 1 days, before i came to gmss (or even heard of Him!) and all the way till now. events and things which happen aft that day, really changed my life. i became more mature (i hope. lol), my belief towards how a family should be changed, the way i used to see your changed. i endured. but the hurt and anger and guilt lingered. maybe, maybe its all part of His plan. until now, im still trying to accept things, to leave things all in His hand and try my best not to do things my own way. perhaps one day, i can really let go. perhaps, that day will come soon (:
coincidences. i dont believe in coincidences. but idk wth they mean this time. im already trying really hard to stop hoping and stop expecting.
idk where the hell is my EoM. changing of second area (again), new scope, tutor losing my EoM (telling me that only aft two weeks), still not getting my EoM back (and she's demanding new drafts again) and deadline drawing near. what. the. hell. ):
and im going to focus really hard to study these few weeks. so, im steering clear of your blog. i dont think i can survive a repetition of mye. that two weeks were awful and horrible. i really dont want to go through that again. i honestly dk how much i can stand it. and you may not even know it, do you? how long will this feeling last? it has been what, almost 4 years? will the feeling fade? has it ever been mutual? or, was i the only one?
CHINESE WORDS APPEAR, SO WHAT HAPPEN TO MY 'ENTER'?? )':
你答应送我三个愿望
第一个希望你能健康开朗
第二个希望我能更懂体谅
第三个希望我们永远有话讲
Friday, September 03, 2010
its like eating cotton candy
i can never get sick of eating it daily
that feeling of satisfaction and happiness
(does cotton candy have endorphins like chocolates too?)how about you?
(:
it's the start of sept holidays! >:D lots of stuff to study, but im really glad its an one-week-long hol! 7 LONG days of break. (: *be optimistic, be optimistic!*
(: (: (: *looking forward*
permettez-moi juste de continuer à vous aimer
Wednesday, September 01, 2010
does it ever occur to you? that you can just be yourself with me?
first day of september 2010
i've decided.. to be truthful (like. for once?) in my blog! went to google images, came across some blogs. im surprised. how many people can actually say: i've been totally truthful in my blog? i believed that the authors were being honest. it felt true. i.. wanted to try that for myself. well, i can just delete this if i were to regret it ltr right? *practical* (:
let's start with my pe assignment/ dance module! LOL im sure you dk what it means. basically.. we gotta find a dance partner. learn basic/ variations from waltz, cha-cha, rock etc. then video basic steps & a routine we came up on our own, matching the tempo and feel of a song. WOW. nearly died l: kudos to my partner, my friend(s) who video ed for us, and that idiot who converted the video for us. >:D heh. when im not feeling so embarrassed by this, maybe.. maybe i'll post the dance. ahhahaha! wait long long, much?
there's sth im really glad about. sheesh. am i too subtle?
and. where did my sleep go? ): i want it back! talked to C for.. omg, abt an hour on monday night. i guess you can say its tues morning. or midnight. anw. hahahah been awhile since i smsed her so much (: and irritating cry jags. we are im a girl with over active emotions. maybe the bottle of emotions i kept locked just spilled out during midnight. there seems to be a pattern. LOL systematic error? sheesh, physics.
crying doesnt indicate that youre weak. since birth, it has always been a sign that youre alive.
tchrs' day celebration ytd. din go back to gmss; nearly did tho! but.. i think its good, ultimately. perhaps avoidance would work for you. find the key to the problem, i'll unlock it for you. actually, its yous, but i doubt anyone actually types it that way! learnt to take things in my stride. i guess.. it was considered to be great, considering. i love it at mac's! :D S&D you two are sooooo cute tgt! :D
conference last night! muahahahha my mother tot i was talking in my dream! LOL. and she got herself so worried.. for nth much.i pray that she din see/ hear me cry late at night. i dont want tobreak her heart.
i just realised..
{x} i spent over an hour on this post! *faints* oh crap!
{x} im confused.
Thursday, September 30, 2010
the last day of september.then comes the dreadful october.damn. i really hate it. but there's really no shortcuts in life, is there? no one will ever say that life will be void of obstacles, but we can be assured that it'll be worthwhile.
we did this "exercise" during econs tutorial ytd. its quite.. LOL!
align the bottom of your palms and place your palms tgt.
look for the hand w (more) shorter fingers.
keep that hand stretched out before you.
will those fingers to grow.
say GROW (x3) aloud and really believe it.
compare the hands again, its really longer! lol. you can hear my class really saying grow and laughing nonstop. my tutor was trying to prove to us that as long as we believe in something and stop telling ourselves its impossible, i wont be able to do it? we will be able to do it.
i like that image alot. but i wonder if the words can be read.. everyone has troubles and woes. but there are reasons for them. they allow us to proceed on with life, perhaps through growing, maturing and learning. there are purposes to our obstacles. we just dk them yet.
but God knows. (:
You are my strength when im weak.*typing love*
lol. idk what to type now. ytd was a rather great day. short day in school. successfully studied physics. crapped with my brother (who suddenly had alot of lame jokes). enjoyed the sms conversations alot alot. but my sleep was crappy. ugh. i still feel like sleeping now. i had what? 6 hours of sleep. *yawns*
LOVEYOU. LIFE STILL GOES ON.
Sunday, September 26, 2010
honestly. my mother is a terrible cook. she made lots of culinary mistakes! like toasting food until they are hard as rocks. like cooking food that are still cold in the middle. her definition of a proper meal is maggie mee. her definition of a proper soup is water with alot alot alot of veg! but i love to see her cooking. (: it makes me feel loved because she makes the effort. i can really see that she tries really hard. especially when she has a daughter who doesnt do anything, but keep laughing at her. lol. i laughed damn alot this morning! like, what? almost non-stop the whole while she cooked! she prepared french fries, otah, fried chicken? almost every item was cooked at least twice. LOL. we nearly cried from laughing too much when we were in the kitchen.
IM GOING TO BE HAPPY. GO AWAY, MY TROUBLES AND UNHAPPINESS. IM GOING TO IGNORE YOUR FOR GOOD.
a day without you is like a year without rain. self-imposed 'cold turkey' is almost meaningless. i think of you everyday.
Wednesday, September 22, 2010
just an emo post
idk what came over me. i really dont. is this normal? im confused. im lost. im disoriented. im terrified. im broken. i guess, i just need someone to tell me, everything is going to be fine. even if it isnt going to be.
will the moon shine its light to guide me this time?
Saturday, September 18, 2010
這一種加油人人都需要
手牽手我們一起賽跑
yes, promos' coming. yes, we get tired of studying. yes, we feel like our efforts are getting us nowhere. yes, we feel hopeless. yes, we feel like giving up. and so? do we really give up right now and there? no one promised that life would be easy. no one promised that our lives will be free of troubles, woes, regrets. there're times when we dont see any reason to move on. there're times when we feel like we are alone. there're times when we feel like things will never work out. there're always always always times like this.
....
we will never know happiness after feeling pain;
or blessings after loss;
or success after failures.
....
promos is what? 2 weeks away. im sure we can deal with these few weeks. im really really really certain.
problems are what? nothing is too big that He can't solve. there's nothing that will keep friends away from helping you as long as you let us.
....
....
I LOVE YOU, SO 加油! (: (: (:
dedicated to whoever chances upon this (:
Friday, September 17, 2010
i. think. im. crazy.
LOL
im supposed to be doing my gp work. yes, now! but damn ): my brain dead laaaa l: *sighs* there's still physics and math! so discouraging.
and then.. i went to google images. LOL. i tell you, i've formed this unhealthy obsession about googling images! now i've like 134 (and still increasing) images which i dl just afew months ago?? crazy right! hahahah!
then i saw a couple of images which really make me
optimistic! SO im going to upload them and hope they will encourage you too! SMILE AND ALL THE BEST! youre not alone, okay? (: (: (:
happiness and peace and hope are choices. make the right choice (:simple "rules" of life (: (:
a catalogue of ridiculous & random things that happen
just the week alone! {} there's this guy whom many in class suan and tease ALOT! someone said that this guy is both perverse AND perverted! so the guy quickly said he was perverse, but not pervert! which.. go check dictionary. (: (: (: hint: choose the meaning that has the worst connotation
{} while Q-ing for food, suddenly my phone rang. the person said: "huiqing? can help me buy cuttlefish? *laughs* " well, firstly, i dont have caller id (so idk who that weirdo is!) and wth! cuttlefish?!!! who calls and asks that person to buy cuttlefish???
{} i see D like, a million times a day! :D we're faattteeeeeeeddddd! lol
{} C passed her own daily bread to me accidentally! oh ): i've like. three daily breads with me now??? am i supp to read the same piece thrice a day? (: (: (:
{} a guy in class wants to buy a birthday present for this girl he-has-yet-to-confess to. so he seeked help.. w the entire class. LOL. so now, the whole class knows abt it and jokes abt it all day looonnggg! deserve it.. not? lol
{} my ct/ pw tutor/ physics tutor has this er.. people sitting infront of her should have umbrellas ready la. liquid stuff with fly when she's talking :O dangerous!!! (ohdear, im being so mean but honest!)
{} what do you call a person who goes around telling "oh, she's so irritating and annoying! how can anyone stand her!" but is actually an equally irritating person? a hypocrite probably. how i wish i could tell her that! l:
{} i think i've a more active sms life than social life!
{} i have classmates who are super fussy w food! even worse than me. see, (despite being called bunneh) i actually detest carrots and the farmer's favourite lor mee! one is actually "allergic" to milk! :O
{} C is oolllddddd now! LOL
{} im going to google about Winchester Mystery House cos apparently, its constructed to confuse ghosts!! interesting right?!
{} i smile like a idiot when i read your msg!
{} i dont like printers. printers dont like me. hi-tech stuff just dont like me! what can i do ): lol (and no, i dont go around smashing stuff when they dont listen to me, okay?!!!)
so, tv says that it is very simple to be happy. you can be really happy when youre merely playing w little animals. well thats not true! i'll first worry about the animals hurting me (like bite me or sth!) and then i worry abt accidentally killing them! how to be happy??!!
i suddenly feel that my grandfather is really strong. despite his significant age. lol. hey! i think thats what people mean by old people are treasures (translate to chinese!) maybe one day, i'll be that strong (: (: (:
on a happy note.. I FEEL LIKE EATING FISH AND CHIPS!! & I FEEL LIKE HUGGING SOMEONE! who wants to volunteer? lol
if i love talking to you, thinking of you, knowing whats going on in your life, complaining to you, joking with you, laughing at you, suaning you and everything thats gotta do with you, what does it mean?
perhaps, whats most important is savour the moment.
Sunday, September 12, 2010
*happily munching chocolate!* (: (: (:
somewhat celebrated crystal's 17th birthday ytd! ^^ could have been alooooot better tho! LOL. and crystal, please! you better rmb your celebration this year okay! im sure all of us wont forget, considering we suffered the trauma of cockcroaches running and flying all over the basement! (okay, that might be a little over-statement, but thats my point. cockcraches! :l) and hahahaha all that pink in the reading room! i bet you wont forget that! ^^
im wishing you a blessed and happy birthday (cliche but heartfelt okay!) in advance here, on my blog (: bcos im not confident that i can get time away to post (yes, even a simple post)! ): but im sure youll have er, fun reading the text im going to send! hahahaha! trust me, it'll be super long! heh!
i cnt honestly say i understand what youre feeling and going through. entirely, that is. but, if kicking and throwing your slipper at the idiotic door (that keeps making funny, annoying noises!) helps, i'll always pick them up. promise. (:
ajisen on friday! w gabrielle, aiksheng, junjie, shichin, wesley. there's some sort of miscommunication right at the start! we walked all over PS! lol. like retards. okay, maybe not! and aiksheng! i we hvnt see your gf before leh! and stop comparing heights la -.- idiot. lol. service at ajisen was rather horrible. but that made the whole day memorable. LOL. we literally camped there! waited 50 mins (?) for our "main dish", which nvr quite came. and laughed at how the "aeroplanes" seem to suan junjie! and among other silly stuff! (: (:
'No matter how far you may have strayed and how lost you may be, He came to seek and to save you.'
this sentence touched me in an odd way. it reminded me of my sec 1 days, before i came to gmss (or even heard of Him!) and all the way till now. events and things which happen aft that day, really changed my life. i became more mature (i hope. lol), my belief towards how a family should be changed, the way i used to see your changed. i endured. but the hurt and anger and guilt lingered. maybe, maybe its all part of His plan. until now, im still trying to accept things, to leave things all in His hand and try my best not to do things my own way. perhaps one day, i can really let go. perhaps, that day will come soon (:
coincidences. i dont believe in coincidences. but idk wth they mean this time. im already trying really hard to stop hoping and stop expecting.
idk where the hell is my EoM. changing of second area (again), new scope, tutor losing my EoM (telling me that only aft two weeks), still not getting my EoM back (and she's demanding new drafts again) and deadline drawing near. what. the. hell. ):
and im going to focus really hard to study these few weeks. so, im steering clear of your blog. i dont think i can survive a repetition of mye. that two weeks were awful and horrible. i really dont want to go through that again. i honestly dk how much i can stand it. and you may not even know it, do you? how long will this feeling last? it has been what, almost 4 years? will the feeling fade? has it ever been mutual? or, was i the only one?
CHINESE WORDS APPEAR, SO WHAT HAPPEN TO MY 'ENTER'?? )':
你答应送我三个愿望
第一个希望你能健康开朗
第二个希望我能更懂体谅
第三个希望我们永远有话讲
Friday, September 03, 2010
its like eating cotton candy
i can never get sick of eating it daily
that feeling of satisfaction and happiness
(does cotton candy have endorphins like chocolates too?)how about you?
(:
it's the start of sept holidays! >:D lots of stuff to study, but im really glad its an one-week-long hol! 7 LONG days of break. (: *be optimistic, be optimistic!*
(: (: (: *looking forward*
permettez-moi juste de continuer à vous aimer
Wednesday, September 01, 2010
does it ever occur to you? that you can just be yourself with me?
first day of september 2010
i've decided.. to be truthful (like. for once?) in my blog! went to google images, came across some blogs. im surprised. how many people can actually say: i've been totally truthful in my blog? i believed that the authors were being honest. it felt true. i.. wanted to try that for myself. well, i can just delete this if i were to regret it ltr right? *practical* (:
let's start with my pe assignment/ dance module! LOL im sure you dk what it means. basically.. we gotta find a dance partner. learn basic/ variations from waltz, cha-cha, rock etc. then video basic steps & a routine we came up on our own, matching the tempo and feel of a song. WOW. nearly died l: kudos to my partner, my friend(s) who video ed for us, and that idiot who converted the video for us. >:D heh. when im not feeling so embarrassed by this, maybe.. maybe i'll post the dance. ahhahaha! wait long long, much?
there's sth im really glad about. sheesh. am i too subtle?
and. where did my sleep go? ): i want it back! talked to C for.. omg, abt an hour on monday night. i guess you can say its tues morning. or midnight. anw. hahahah been awhile since i smsed her so much (: and irritating cry jags. we are im a girl with over active emotions. maybe the bottle of emotions i kept locked just spilled out during midnight. there seems to be a pattern. LOL systematic error? sheesh, physics.
crying doesnt indicate that youre weak. since birth, it has always been a sign that youre alive.
tchrs' day celebration ytd. din go back to gmss; nearly did tho! but.. i think its good, ultimately. perhaps avoidance would work for you. find the key to the problem, i'll unlock it for you. actually, its yous, but i doubt anyone actually types it that way! learnt to take things in my stride. i guess.. it was considered to be great, considering. i love it at mac's! :D S&D you two are sooooo cute tgt! :D
conference last night! muahahahha my mother tot i was talking in my dream! LOL. and she got herself so worried.. for nth much.i pray that she din see/ hear me cry late at night. i dont want tobreak her heart.
i just realised..
{x} i spent over an hour on this post! *faints* oh crap!
{x} im confused.
the last day of september.
just an emo post
這一種加油人人都需要
你答应送我三个愿望 
first day of september 2010
and. where did my sleep go? ): i want it back! talked to C for.. omg, abt an hour on monday night. i guess you can say its tues morning. or midnight. anw. hahahah been awhile since i smsed her so much (: and irritating cry jags.