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Wednesday, March 14, 2012

Darling don't be afraid

(: honestly.

does he know that he can make my day simply with a morning sms? (: esp when he sneaked me a sms ytd (:

restless night! kicked things off my bed during my sleep-- okayyy time to pack my bed ): and you just bought a top and a dress ytd! need to pack le! :D shopping round2 tml? :D

hehe my birthday present from my parents (: its almost 5months late, but idc, i love it! :D there's another watch, with a sweet pink watch face :D love it too! :D and the price of these two watches is comparable to the price of this particular Ellesse watch i fell in love with! omg. thank God i din ask my parents to buy when i first set my sights on that watch!

delayed gratification? :D

i really am thankful for my parents and family (: i love them so much (: and im really lucky to have them! i know, when all else fails, and i need comfort and help, they will always be there (: (: it struck me so clearly last night when i was disappointed.

xin qing mei mei now :D compared to last night, well, a huge difference! :D

funny how the cause of one's disappointment can make everything go away so simply. cause& effect?

hahahahhaha reminded me of what i told D jokingly the other day, you break it (my heart), you heal it!!! (: wonder how we came to talking about that!

photography is really fun. even taking photos with my brother's (super-good) camera phone, and then editing with some app :D okay, confession, i really love black-and-white alot! it might be an obsession! lol!

besides, photographs bring back memories (: truckloads of them!

and, negativity! go away! you are not wanted in my life.

which is true (: and reading is really an awesome leisurely activity! :D hope i still have time to indugle in that once i pass my job interview and start work! please offer me 1300 and i'll definitely accept!

sometimes, its easier said than done! but try! :D it really isnt that difficult after all

just some comfort and warmth..

hahahahaha i actually laughed when i first read this! lol!

as a kid, i was really terrified of the dark sometimes! lol! even now, i hate to watch horror movies. gives me the creeps. which i know is the intended effect but

i miss my boyfriend. esp difficult when he has this field camp where i cannot hear from him at all! what's more tragic? being able to contact yet you dont contact one another? or being unable to contact yet youre dying to contact one another? almost equally.

Saturday, March 03, 2012

colors and promises.

(:
right now, i shall dream about my future, discover what i like, explore the available options and believe i can do it. im really scared. it's almost as if im taking my a levels all over again! that uncertain and helpless feeling. and coming from me, i gues it could be weird.

DARE TO DREAM. CARPE DIEM (seize the day)
pray. ms N as well as C reminded me to do that (: and. right, dont worry about the Uni tuition fees. tell me how that is possible? im earnest and honestly interested in that course, please give me the scholarship. i swear i dont do slipshod work!

dont ever give up. that's what defines failure. if you fall and stay there, refusing to try again, will you grow and learn?

& really. im not perfect you know. i do get scared. and stressed. hearing I'll-see-you-on-stage-later doesnt actually reassures me! i do have the fear of failure. fear of letting people down. and perhaps, even stronger.

thats what i do! hope. hope for the best. (: many things are beyond our control! as my tour guide likes to say, smile! be happy! regardless of your mood and what (terrible) things which happened to you, the day will still pass! a discouraged person will find his troubles increasing, while a cheerful person will find solutions and opportunities in situations!

which is true. the earth doesnt stop revolving just bcos of you!

i wonder.. if my logic makes sense. cos i know sometimes it doesnt! hahahah just ask my friends!

yes.
am i a happy person? hahahaha i think im quite normal leh! :D ms C seems to have a theory on why im a happy person! hahahah!
my boyfriend was trying to prove it. he said laugh? and i start laughing! hahahahaah! i think i laugh everyday! J said she laughs at all my jokes (what? i joke? lololol) & D and i laugh at like, everything and anything! hahahah at some parts of This Means War (even Harry Potter), no one else was laughing but the two of us! :D
good times.am i happy bcos of the good things in my life? or good things are in my life bcos im happy? this is like the chicken-and-egg-which-comes-first situation! i see good in everything, and it makes life good! and perhaps bcos life is good, i see everything (mostly) in rose-tinted glasses! mentality goes a long way!
&everyone has his own battles to fight. you arent the only one feeling that way.

so pretty.
i love art&craft. i love creating and designing things when i feel like it. and i guess, that's why i dont have the confidence and passion to opt for Design courses! like i told my mother, when the mood strikes or when i feel like making gifts, i'll really enjoy myself! but to design and create for work? on a daily basis?

would you?
i wouldnt. there are things that happen which i absolutely hate. i would want everyone i love to be healthy and alive. but i guess, things always happen for a reason. one thing leads to another! butterfly effect?
contentment!

open your eyes, open your heart. you arent alone.

how the mind and heart works. always a mystery (:

you can have the sky if you want to,

Friday, February 17, 2012

Above All Else.

positive thinking goes a long way (: you've absolutely no idea.

:D
anw, im so used to BlackBerry! im not sure what phone i wna change to! ohnoz, there might be a chance i would cont using BlackBerry! creature of habit!? -with a pinch of impulse sometimes!

yummm (: cruise (Royal Caribbean) supposedly has great food! :D hmm my weight.. hmm..! :D

what solution is there when im not in sg and youre in sg? sigh. tsk. ohwell. i hope you love your gifts (: i nearly died preparing them! you've no idea. hahahahahahah!

hehe D has a really awesome way of replying me! hahahaah! i really hope her entire life would be a smooth journey (: but there will be bumps along the way D:

addio, amore mio

hahaahahh! why is "my" at the back? mhmmm!

Tuesday, February 14, 2012

whirlpool of emotions. do you see the heart? or the single person/thorns? i guess, perception matters!

i feel loved by my family, my boyfriend and my special knit of friends (called my/the clique!) pretty much, quite easily! hahahahah! a simple comment, a simple sentence in a sms.. that could be all it takes to make my day (:

me instead of anything else? you above all else. (yes, i've better language! heh)

i've been feeling that recently, my parents are showing more display of affection :D heh! telling us every week that they are going pa tor! :D &ytd?! my mum always lay on the bed really close to my dad whenever i sit on their bed! ytd, i asked why, my mum said "I KNOW WHY! YOU GOT MAGNETISM, ATTRACT ME OVER!" *poke my dad* hahahahahhah! we laughed like mad! &when i told my boyf, we laughed like mad all over agn lol!

morbid thought (the image). i know. but i genuinely feel that way! &esp if theres a death scene in wtv-show-i-was-watching-w-my-family!

dont worry if youre single (: dont worry if youre facing problems and all. have faith that better things are coming (: (:

i wonder if our boyfriends sneeze like mad ytd, seeing how much we talked about them! met up with my primary school friend! a fraction of all that we've talked about revolved around r/s etc. heh she's envious of the "honeymoon" period of r/s! well, i've nvr had a r/s which is 3years old so.. cant say i could understand entirely! she says her birthday (in Feb) is celebrated with valentines! hahahahah and we celebrate our birthdays separately even tho they are both in October!
*shakes head* we both agree we dk how her boyf got the $$ for all her gifts! hahaha!

so prettyyyy! so envious of his/her culinary skills! ):

dont you think that.. in a way, life is like baking? you find a recipe- try it out! &subsequently, you adjust it slightly as you make mistakes and learn.

i love these pictures. (:

today is gna be a great day (: so what if im alone on valentines? really, shouldnt valentines be everyday? do you treat your loved one well on just that one day out of 365?

Saturday, February 11, 2012

every day is a new day.

heh, unusual picture to start this post! its just soo cute! :D friends have asked/commented this, why are you so fascinated by (small) kids? even D& my boyfriend! hhahhaha well, idk, they just make me happy :D mhmm wonder if those two cute kids would end up tgt! ^^

p/s my parents are so sweet. they would say, hey, we are going pa tor now! bye bye! heh

what gives you inspiration?

the most random things inspire me! eg, just today, i had my dental appt. i was hugely disappointed and extremely displeased/annoyed. i've always thought that appointments exist for the sake of orderliness& (time)effectiveness! clearly, i was wrong. patients are always waiting even tho they appear at the time given by the clinic! im sorely tempted to study perhaps, management& set things right! hahahahah! i love the idea of planning. perhaps it gives the illusion of control over certain areas..

p/s balloons have always made me feel peaceful (: interestingly!

& the fact is, i admit, im still trying to get used to the fact that he's enlisted. and that despite my heart's desires, i cant talk and see him all the time. and there's so much for him to do. and i miss him so much. i was so used to him& everything. and now? its like withdrawal symp! lol!

but, really, God is good. (: i had a really awesome time on Thursday! until now, im still giving thanks! bcos it has really made me realise that yes, he's very important!

p/s know why i put the picture of donuts?

but i shouldnt spend everyday, just hoping that 10pm would come faster! its not like me to waste my life away. and it really shocked me that a part of me was actually thinking of spending the entire week routinely, just for Saturday to come. no, no, no, it shouldnt be like this.

precious moments, precious friends (:

(i like the hair!)

isn't that what faith is all about?

i'll survive. and not fear for my future. God has everything planned. trust him, have faith.

everyone needs comfort. i believe that! :D

be kind, for everyone is fighting a hard battle.

i think its really true, to some extent! and.. there are people who cant see the problems in their lives? i promised i would talk to people when i need help. but the problem is, really, i've no idea when isit that i need help! idk what constitutes a real problem bcos, frankly speaking, im more used to listening to your problems.

i was shocked that you came to me for help, seeing that we dont actually talk much! i sincerely hope your problem will be solved. perhaps solution will find you soon enough (: i dont think you even know of my blog, but anywayy/

have you? have i?

Sunday, February 05, 2012

love life.

nice anology. i love books. really, i love reading! its a haven tailor-made for me. and i really love pretty images, and relate-able quotes!

just borrowed 7 books ytd! so excited! :D

but i just found out i lost my bookmark ): the metal one. im devastated. anyone? work some magic? (i refuse to believe im so prone to losing things!)

true. was supp to pack my cupboard tdy! (i hate the dust! made my cough worse, logically!) HAHAHAHA i laughed like mad. i wanted to keep everything, and my mum: why you keep rubbish?!

and once a while i'll "dig" out random stuff: omg, whats this?! my mum: how i know! you want keep de!!!! (eg, i found the big big plastic used to wrap my even-bigger bear!)

and she's so mean ): she wna put all the "rubbish" into the big black hat! just to annoy me!

altho i ended up hot and sweaty, i really laughed alot with my mother! quality time? :D

wow. i was awestruck when i saw this! i wonder when i'll start baking agn!

too pretty to eat.

so pretty! i wonder if its stick-on, or painted, or air-brushed! wow. im really wow-ed! i dont think i'll have that much patience on my nails! but really, effort pays! dont you agree?

the packing today made me realise one thing: i've lots of soft toys! many are small tho.. anw, saw really cute and fluffy bears ytd! almost tempted to buy!!!! until i realise i may not have space for them ): but i'd love to be surrounded w soft toys! condition- dust does not exist!

mhmm. idk what this feeling is. maybe alil disappointed. altho i can understand.im almost bordering on frustration!

OHYEA. CREDITS TO LEILOCKHEART.TUMBLR AGN (;

SO CUTE.