Friday, December 25, 2009
MERRY CHRISTMAS!
service at city harvest church was great! i really love the drama, a Christmas Love Story, and the festive mood! :D im a romantic at heart, so yea. i really enjoyed the drama alot.
next year! invite all of us ( faith four one 2009 ) to go for the service! :D can can?
i really dont want christmas to end. i dont want whatever that we have among us to end. i dont want to start the new year knowing i wont see your in the same class anymore. i dont want to start the new year knowing things wont be the same between us anymore. i dont want the next time i see you, there are awkward pauses. i dont want us to split ways..
sometimes, its good to be alone. not having to pretend that everything is okay.
Saturday, December 19, 2009
nostalgic already.
can we meet out more often? since laughter is the best medicine? ( i bet it taste much much better than my cough medicine and flu tablet! )
Dec 18th- BBQ at Crystal's!
my dad got a lil paranoid. see, i got fever the day before. but i had panadol, so it got better. but first, he din want me to go bbq. then, i need to take temperature to convince him i was okay to go bbq (cheated a lil.. or else, my temperature confirm too high!). then, some fussing.. then he wanted me to wear jeans to bbq! he say he scared me cold! /: er. jeans? bbq? cold? and he wanted me go at 5pm?! bbq starts at 4pm!
anw. hahah! laughed alot at paya lebar mrt while Heather and i waited for the guys to come. ShiChin Wesley Terence Joash AikSheng (Vivian JunJie HsiYuan joined us ltr/ SiHui go Crystal's directly). then i think i nearly squashed Heather on the bus. cos i got no hand to hold on to anything and talk on the phone! and the msg also kindof silly la :D we laughed like two siao za bo ): lols.
mahjong! actually.. it was more like mahjong-while-midnightmeattrain. that movie was scary enough without the visual (i listened only). congrats the person in charge of the sound effects *sarcastically* and the movie seriously dont make sense la. at least the other horror nightmare-inducing movies make some sense as in the cause-and-effect. why some things happen. midnight meat train dont even tell me why got zombie! and.. dont zombies eat live human? why this one de eat dead ppl? without teeth, hair etc etc.? and hor, SiHui ShiChin Joash watch movie, hands dont move one. esp Joash and SiHui!
back to mahjong. hahah v fun! :D think those who played all 'hu' leh! me SiHui Joash. well, with the exception of ShiChin/ Crystal. hahah, must be the feng shui right! two of your sit same place! hahah! hahah, we laughed alot! and yes, i know i v 'sociable' la :D so Joash/ ShiChin, take your own tiles! lolols :D
bbq :D you know, all the food de smell damn nice? and got diffusion? i smell le, i want eat! but ): i cannot! no spicy food (otah and sambal stingray and lamb chop!). no sweet stuff (marshmallow). no chicken (chicken wings and satay). left with the cold noodles, and hotdogs. which are what i ate. hahah! so poor thing right? ): lols. but well. the laughter made up for it. :D but i was the only weirdo who left at 7pm ): hahah! and your hor.. make him walk until stairs there and walk back for??
next year. i promise next year confirm come. and it'll be a healthy HuiQing! hahah.
Dec 17th- Captain ball at GMSS.
exercise :D hahah! if only we started the game early. and everyone came early. and Heather stop talking abt Case 39. hahah! the game was actually v short ): an hour only. but.. it was a noisy.. no, i mean enthusiastic and hilarious game! (and Jaime! stop calling me goldfish la!) we actually grouped ourselves three times! for the final game, it was me WeiMei Dewi Jaime EeHui ShiChin against Heather SiHui Kenlia AiLing JingLong ChuanYee. with JunXing the joker entertaining Crystal the photographer :D lunched at fish&co.
sometimes i really wished i could read your mind. maybe, at the very least, figure out what you are thinking about. idk. many a time, i feel confused and awkward around you. i think it is just me. there are many questions and i never seem to dare to seek the answers. it just feels beyond reach.beyond my grasp. what would happen to us next year? perhaps the most important question- would i forget you?
Friday, December 11, 2009
Love doesn't make the world go 'round;
Love is what makes the ride worthwhile.
to all who are working:
you are doing a great job! :D even if you do commit mistakes and blunders, no matter how major or minor. im certain of that. bcos i know if i am the one doing your job, i'll mess up everything! definitely. from taking orders to serving etc. dont give up (: jiayou!
New Moon-ed again. with Diana this time :D hahah, i think the both of us laugh alot during the movie :D *clears throat* someone yawned and nearly fell asleep. i wonder who.. lols! well, at least this time, there is subtitles! (: a life-saviour!
i want to watch Sherlock Holmes and The Vampire's Assistant :D but, the latter is kindof gross.. well, other than that, it seems quite interesting (:
saw this walking blue genie guy. what disney story isit? there's a lamp and flying carpet, if im not wrong. hahah, he looks kindof scary!
are women perceived as the weaker sex? otherwise, tell me why old ladies get seats faster than old men on trains!
i feel torn. btwn going to Junior College or Polytechnic. i mean. i really dk what i want. the JCs near my house have low cut-off points. the courses in Poly im interested in seem so out of reach. i should have more confidence in myself, right? but i just cnt do it. if only i cn have half the faith others have in me..
//
Diana: bcos i dont want some things to come true (: hahah i've an inquisitive nature :D not quite my fault!
Crystal: what did you say? i dont think i heard you! :D *cries* Crystal you bully! ): i where got long-winded!
you said to be friends. but.. something feels different.
Tuesday, December 08, 2009
i dont believe in intuition. i dont.
RANDOMMMM. (:
//
Ethel: no prom ): kindof sad leh. even tho i wasnt planning on going initially, i still looked forward to it. and HEY! there's no prom this yr bcos the turnout is too little. fantastic.
Heather: replies at your own tagboard (:
a simple excuse. and i accepted it. so, what happened to me ytd?
Sunday, December 06, 2009
i think of you and everything's okay;
im so bored! and i think im irritating my friends! hahah. well, with the exception of Heather and SiHui. one's in Malaysia, Genting, while the other working. strictly speaking, she's off work now.
listening to Two Is Better Than One by boys like girls. over and over again. seriously pissing my brother off. oh well. who call him do that also! lols.
Crystal and SiHui la! play this song when we were playing mahjong at SiHui's! now im addicted to it. i only heard it once and i had this impression of the song alr. first impression huh!
reminds me of what Queenie said ytd during church service (: first impressions are impt. hahah, she really does remind me of my senior too. Crystal, agreed.
//
Crystal: SiHui can stand by me and say you accept the bet!! :D two agnst one, i can just see the results :DD lolols
Ethel: lets hope the memories will last! (: but still! why is the trip so short?! hahah, i think guys need social etiquette lessons. during NS, maybe? :D
WeiMei: parents dont let! cos end at 11 PM?! :O kindof late la, honestly speaking. so, im currently jobless ): lols. lets watch SHERLOCK HOLMES!!! hahah, and 'train' this friend of yours, okay! :D
Diana: weekend?? ): oh yeah! im gna keep pestering you until you tell me where you work?!! not only I want to know leh!
p.s. i put the song Two Is Better Than One at the uh, bottom of the blog de right hand side? it's not a bad song (:
why can't i make things okay myself?
i dont think i can continue waiting for you.
Friday, December 04, 2009
a day and a half since.. why am i counting?
this is so random but.. im entitled to being random right! :D
at kl, me ChuanYee Ethel FooXin SiHui sat on our (me FooXin SiHui) bed, watching Cape number 7, 海角七號! until.. about three am? :D
kindof messy and confusing to me. and.. dont really get the uh, love story btwn the two characters. apparently. oops. XD
國境之南
is a very nice song tho! hahah, i rmb we made FooXin repeat the song agn! :D
p.s. im kindof lazy to post the link but you cn easily youtube it (:
// kindof missed the days we spent at malaysia. all the crapping and all the laughing D: been rotting at home now ( cnt find any job?!!tried but lucked out. ) and oh! been conferencing till.. late at night! ytd until 2 am?! the day before 1 am! hahah :D quite fun tho. but i've been a 'ye mao zi' le! D:
been trying to figure out what exactly am i feeling. but.. im still back at square one. perhaps i should just.. follow my feelings.
but isn't it dangerous to fall so hard without knowing what youre getting into?
Thursday, December 03, 2009
why do i think of you so much?
went to the movies! New Moon.
well.. i think its better than Twilight but the ending was plain.. horrible. hahah!
Edward: i've just one condition *inaudible* marry me
Audience: awww..
screen went black.
lights came back on.
wth?!!
hahah, laughed like mad when everyone started cursing and all.
music was horrible, as well. i mean, the songs really dont make sense at all. if there was a possibility?? why do you keep repeating that same line?!
it was actually pretty cool watching New Moon since it was the first day it was screened. there will be collective ooh and aah-s! it felt like you know everyone in the theater! which i've to say- its so cool!
like, when Jacob took off his shirt, Bella saying you (Jacob) are so beautiful (seriously?) and Jacob being so sweet to Bella. oops, Edward mia the movie mostly. and SiHui, i dont think Edward was wearing his um, pyjamas to see the Volt. and Jaime.. black vampires dont mean they are bad. that bad vampire just happen to be casted by a black man. realllly.
and.. SiHui actually OUCH-ed out loud when Bella/ Steward's arm was stitched. apparently, i wasnt the only one who heard it. lols.
and.. i asked who wants the frigging cake. i got laughter in response. -.- interesting.
and.. OMG! im so damned proud of myself :D im not the one who asked the most no. of questions! hurrraaay! see what your can say the next time we watch movie! XD
that reminds me- i wna watch Sherlock Holmes! :D
who said the werewolves in New Moon were like, dogs?!! me and SiHui got a scare when we saw the werewolves! they were like, frigging BIG?! and they look seriously scary. and Jacob/ Lautner de fur supposed to be v nice to touch one! but the fur, apparently, dont look that way.
Crystal went abit crazy when ChuanYee was having his uh, super-late lunch. she took photos with my camera (like ChuanYee said) as if she has never touched one before! she laugh before&when&after she take photo. umm.. poor ChuanYee cannot eat his lunch in peace. lols!
lunched at Ajisen. with Jaime SiHui Crystal Heather :D di siao-ed one another. hahah! laughed alot alot. especially when di siao-ing Crystal! you still owe me and SiHui a meal! :DD
arcade-ed. hahah Crystal play the drive car de until v funny! very animated too :D
Thursday, November 26, 2009
if only i can control my thoughts and feelings..
25 nov
swimming!
finally got to stretch my limbs. what a wondrous feeling! lols. seriously feel awesome after swimming! but deep-bone tired. hahah too long nvr din exercise le. muscle aches, hit my toes agn, splitting headache. my eyes couldn't adjust back from the pool water, damn pain and dry. and no eye mo at home!! ahh! and feverish too. omg, my body cannot tahan four hours of swimming! lousy *shakes head*
my brother can swim le!! *claps* :D
26 nov
cycling!
call me crazy, call me dumb.
yes, i went cycling when my body is still screaming that i need more rest. way to go, girl!
lols. right this minute, im starting to regret my decision.
i cant even walk properly, for Pete's sake! my toe there, the skin came off?! how did that happen?! dont ask me, i've no idea.
if the skin is red, isit sun burn? bcos im told that if its red and pain, its sun burn. mine is not! its itchy, on the other hand! scratch until skin came off /: *shudders* not a nice sight.
i hate lotion. and now, bcos of sun burn, im forced to apply lotion. ugh. how can anyone like applying this.. sticky coloured liquid stuff on their body?
how can anyone get sun burn for two days in a row? is that person blur or stupid? i think its the latter, tho.
// wants to mahjong ):
din get to touch the tiles at all!! haiix, made sihui bring it for nth.. sorry.
i think i was acting like a bitch just now. im just tired and i cant walk properly. and well, that's just my problem right? it shouldn't have been hard to smile abit now and then. instead of giving an expressionless face. is it pointless to say im sorry now?
and there's this frigging application in facebook that is so damn true la. i tried it three times ( two times were out of spite. i din believe it would be true agn. ) and all true? ahh! crap. why cant the other applications be true too? why just this single application? ):
sometimes, i wish im a mind-reader; so i can read your thoughts and not have to second-guess what you are thinking about. sometimes, i wish my heart is a computer and my mind is the remote control; so i can switch my feelings off and not feel hurt.
and i know deep down, it is not possible.
Tuesday, November 24, 2009
idk what to feel anymore;
can anyone tell me what to do?
23 nov
went orchard for lunch, movies, books and starbucks!
fried prawns noodles!! ( prawn is dark orange when cooked. right?) my favourite. and yes, i do not know how to use chopsticks la. what you want. teach me how to use it with expertise la! lols. and Heather actually asked two other random people where they buy their fried prawn mee! thanks heather! :D
my girlfriend is an agent! it was greeeaaat! hahah ridiculously hilarious! :D i love the part where the guy wanted to take a photo.. secretly.. and his phone said SAY CHEESE! ( in korean, of course.) hahah, he was so busted. got knocked until dk-where by the police man who appeared before. hahah the officer also v funny XD and cute ( his actions la.)
i love kinokuniya! got two more books there. heh, and i bought two romance books from kino in malaysia too! my mother say i siao ):
24 nov
went SiHui's.
MAHJONG-ed with SiHui, Crystal and Sean.
omg, i think im addicted to it alr! ahhh D:<
lols, saw SiHui's sister and her boyfriend.
ohmy, my first thought was: he's taallllll.
and that reminds me: SiHui has a lamp that is like.. slanted.
since it's high up on the wall.. it's not me who hit it. definitely.
//
hope it wont be raining tml!
wna go swimming with my family (:
SDKK LD VGZS SN CN ZMC EDDK
Thursday, November 19, 2009
missed you.
been back for a night? and i missed ethel & fooxin's laughter alr! ):
cnt believe our 6D5N retreat is over alr ):
but we had fun (:
upload photos okay!!
many many funny things happened.
like kevin leading us walk the wrong direction to the taxi stand?
and running for our lives when we were crossing the road
and when ethel does the dk-what-character laughter!
and when we all started laughing at ethel's laughter in the hotel room
and when sihui's luggage cannot open!
and when everyone tried forcing it open while i take photo :D
and when we called this guy to open sihui's luggage with a hammer!
and when we used surgical tape to 'bandage' her luggage!
and when amanda locked herself out of her hotel room
and when we stared at the super small serving in pizza hut!
and when .. (:
some habits are contagious.
and that is not a good news.
ethel 'caught' the hair-twirling from andrew
& she 'passed' it to us in malaysia!
well, most of us anw. even chuanyee twirled his uh.. short hair! ( how did he manage to do it? )
couldn't really sleep last night.
guess it was too quiet ):
memories are for forever.
****************************************************************
it was sudden and unexpected.
i guess everyone tot that he was out of the woods alr.
but i guess not.
i hope he would be in peace now.
life is short.
i hope i live mine to the fullest.
carpe diem.
Thursday, November 12, 2009
} exuberance and euphoria are contagious
yes! olevels is almost over! well, it felt like it was already over last fri! OMG, cant believe it's over already! :D kindof expected it to feel longer than 3 weeks.
hahah, wna burn old the tb, notes and files.
but.. i dont think its environmentally friendly.
if complete combustion, there's carbon dioxide! greenhouse gases- trap heat and increase global temperature!
if incomplete combustion, there's carbon monoxide! it is poisonous because it will react with the haemoglobin in our blood and prevent it from absorbing blood- leading to death!
see. so, only option left is to recycle.
and recycling helps to.. i shall shut up :D
CLASS RETREAT!! <3
must play like siao over the next 6 days at malaysia!
LET'S HAVE FUUUUUUNNNNN! :D
& take photos!!
// i'll miss my tv tho ):
and when we come back, lets go out agn!! :D
// must stop thinking abt olevels already. what done is done. so, no point crying over split milk! lols.
p.s. i want to change blogskin! but i cant find a nice one- any recommendation?
Friday, October 16, 2009
im a blessed and lucky girl.
P L E A S A N T _ S U R P R I S E.
wow. i hadn't expected that. i thought i'd only receive one present. i mean, who has time to go out and buy present with olevel coming? and.. hahah this year more successful; the element of surprise is there!
B A L L.
i see why everyone's telling me to go for pe. it's really fun! ( maybe minus the fact that jaime laughed at me four times and idk what i did! ) but i think the two uh, things on my toes are blisters. really.
T E D D Y.
big big teddy! i can't believe my parents actually bought me that.. it's.. ex. and the bear is big as in big big!! :D
D E E L I C I O U S.
ajisen! tom yam, crayfish ( not clayfish. yes, i know. ), volcano and beef one! hahah i think we laugh more than we eat XDD
its still feels special. somehow, someway, somewhat.
but i still feel like telling that idiot who said time heals all wounds to eat his words.
expect the unexpected. how true.
Wednesday, October 14, 2009
so what? no one cares.
D O N U T S.
omg. so nice can! :D cant resist them! so, shut up, you conscience! XD
everyone needs a get-away sometimes.
S T R E S S E D.
i think im. stressed, i mean. i've an interesting indicator. dandruff. ugh. but it's not helping me to work harder. im still slacking. im still pushing comb humanities ( esp social studies ) one side. been three days already! so, tell me, what's the use of stress when it's not a driving motivation? no use. precisely.
N E U T R A L I S E D.
a reaction between an acid and alkali, producing a salt and water only.
wth, did i just type that?! feeling extremely neutral. i cant believe im going to be 16 already. and i cant believe that i was actually excited about my birthday last year. huh. so, what changed? oh right, maybe bcos this year, most 16 year-olds actually have this thing known as olevels. oh yea, that changed. when we were 15, we dont have that -.-
another year. yet another year without you. maybe its an assurance. maybe its nothing. nothing at all.
C O N F U S E D.
ss is going to make me pull out all my hair. figuratively of course. i mean im only doing SBQs and im already full of questions. will it be worse when i (finally) succeed in making myself study the text? i honestly doubt so.
A M U S E D.
mildly amused. okay, maybe everyone does want to feel special once in a while.
what a major screw-up. i see one when i look at the mirror.
Sunday, October 04, 2009
think i screwed up
another week passed.
graduation service passed.
that reminds me: four years passed!!
it seemed like yesterday; especially the childish uh quarrels with crystal :D and playing throw-the-eraser and accidentally hitting.. aherm.. XD the blue-tack with heather! crystal kicking at weimei chair *ants!* laughing with sihui :D
and say, my.. infuriating habits. pointing far-too-near at people. and uh doing that wrist/arm thing. and hanging up the phone too soon without the good-byes. which im proud to say: i kick those habits alr!!
but apparently i got new.. not-so-nice habits *sighs in resignation*
think im falling for those times again (:
Tuesday, September 22, 2009
lunch at mac can be enjoyable! well, if you overlook the noise level and the presence of uh, say, certain misfits, mac is a good and near place to hang out.
irked.
the descent is not a comedy, i dont understand how come weimei and heather have so much to say abt it /: i mean, im creeped out by the show. and i didnt even watch the whole movie, as i promised dewi. i seriously, reached my limit. ugh. i even got spooked by some noise coming from the carpark. i think. i hope it is from the carpark. /: and i couldn't even have a good night sleep. ugh.
ecstatic.
watched aliens in the attic ytd! hahaha laughed until stomach pain. oh well, think i'll enjoy it more if im watching with friends tho. heh. comedy is the perfect panacea for messed-up nerves. seriously. it was the perfect thing to drive those creepy crawlers out of my mind.
disillusioned.
it felt like a slap on my face. jolting me awake from the illusion. that someone could actually step out of his comfort zone and think from another person's perspective. climb under his skin and walk around in it. well sth liddat. i mean, how wrong can your opinion be? i thought i was numb to it. but, i guess thats not the case.
can anyone see behind the pseudo-smiles?
idk how tml will be; i hope this quotes will speak to you and give you the encouragement and support you need (:
when one door closes, God will open another window; but we so often look so long and so regretfully upon the closed door that we do not see the ones that are opened for us.
a bend in the road is not the end of the road.. unless you fail to make the turn.
life is not a bed of roses. [ sth ms ng says very often.]
when we are met with obstacles, find another way! persistence! [ your should know who said this (: ]
Thursday, September 10, 2009
pissed him off. agn. should be so proud of myself. i always piss him off. will there come a day he doesnt give me grief? over the simplest thing? i honestly doubt so. i think thats why we're given brothers. a curse. they make you wonder why are you given so much patience. or bad luck. that youre stuck with them, regardless of whatever that may come.
crushed. disappointed. it wasnt supposed to happen. i always hv my emotions under control. not the other way round. but i think it was better tdy. idk. its just safer to have everything under lock and key. open to only myself to go over.. when im ready for it.
tea party. it was.. surprisingly fun. lols. i was supposed to be treated to oreos you know! thanks cordelia. anw, jin fang helped her to buy chocolate cupcakes and .. coffee rolls. the chocolate cupcakes were delicious! thanks jin fang! and the green tea? it just doesnt go well with plum. NOTE: do not ever try pokka's green tea with plum!! seriously. plain water- with ice, tastes awesome. comparatively. that should tell you sth,right? hahahaha laughed alot during the tea party. :D
went to bugis library with sihui. did physics. i did more, i suppose. i hv mountains of questions. well, you cn imagine. they are endless. so physics kind of ended up into debate on the logic behind physics. and to my dismay, i realise sth's wrong with my phone. ugh. ): whats wrong with me and hi tech stuff. we just dont go along.
computers just dont like me. this one doesnt let me upload stuff! D:<
Saturday, September 05, 2009
dont think i've a life.
i really think i'm losing it. sth that had happened 47 months ago should not make you sad right? it had passed too long for someone to feel anything. right?
i want an arguing friend. heather? then cn make crystal feel mature at the same time.. hmmmm, good idea? i want a laughing friend. diana? then her face goes super red. think its most fun to laugh abt her and.. anw. i want a bullying friend. weimei? hahahahah :D that should be fun. i want talking friends- bcos i've too much thoughts. sihui and crystal? maybe sihui more, cos crystal hor.. always mia one! and we tend to talk out of topic more often!
... im going to miss all of you so much when we graduate! why do i live so darned far away?!
by my own choice, i stayed on. i hope its the right decision. and that these memories will last (:
i love gmss. i love my class. i love my friends. i just dont love studying and exams and olevels that much.
it's selfish but i enjoyed myself.
Wednesday, September 02, 2009
it's odd. that i actually feel neutral towards prelims. no worries, no anxiety, no fears. just a slight difference when im studying. i wonder if things will be this way when im studying for the o levels. things should change, right?
isit okay to not feel nervous before an exam? isit okay to feel at ease with someone you dont trust? isit okay to doubt someone whom you trust? isit okay to know it but unable to accept it? isit okay to not follow your instinct? isit okay to regret after not following your instinct, your impulse? isit okay to cherish only after you lose it? isit okay to torment yourself with if-onlys? isit okay to stop asking so much from yourself? isit okay to like it, yet dont dare to want it? isit okay to laugh when you're breaking inside? isit okay..
i saw this uncle on the bus, on my way home. he looks vaguely like my grandpa, well if you only consider his back profile. the same hairstyle, the same white hair, the same hand where he wears his silver watch, the same white shirt with black trousers. hmmm, and i realised my grandpa actually looks more handsome than the uncle i saw on the bus. like really much more handsome!randommmm.
The Carpenter's Tools
Brother Hammer served as the chairman. The other members of the tool belt informed him that he must leave, because he was too noisy. But brother Hammer said, "If I have to leave this carpenter's shop, then brother Gimlet must go too. He's insignificant and makes a very small impression." (A gimlet is a small tool with a screw point, grooved shank, and a cross handle for boring holes).
Little brother Gimlet arose and said, "All right, but brother Screwdriver must go also. You have to turn him around and around to get anywhere with him."
Brother Screwdriver turned to the other tools in the belt and said, "If you wish, I will go, but brother Plane must leave too. All of his work is on the surface; there's no depth to what he does."
To this brother Plane leveled his terse reply, "Well, then, brother Saw will have to depart too. The changes he proposes always cut too deep."
Brother Saw complained, saying, "Brother Ruler will have to withdraw if I leave, for he's always measuring other folks as though he were the only one who is right."
Brother Ruler then surveyed the group and said, "Brother Sandpaper doesn't belong here either. He's rougher than he ought to be, and is always rubbing people the wrong way."
In the midst of the discussion, the Carpenter of Nazareth walked in. He had come to perform his day's work. He put on His tool belt and went to the workbench to make a pulpit. He employed the ruler, the saw, the plane, the hammer, the gimlet, the screwdriver, the sandpaper, and all the other tools. When the day's work was over, the pulpit was finished, and the carpenter went home. All the accusations against each of these tools were absolutely true, yet the carpenter used every one of them. No matter which tool He use, no other tool could have done the work better.
THOUGHT: We are all "tools"" in Jesus' tool box. Each of us has a purpose, ability, and a task to perform.
"For we are God's fellow workers..." (1 Corinthians 3:9a; cf. 12:12ff).
going through the motions.
i just want someone to hug when i cry.
Sunday, August 23, 2009
when was the last time i post? ... i rather not think about it. seems like ages ago.
lets just say i dont feel like studying or facebooking now and feel sth that comes close to an urge to post. or in other words, touch base with my blog. this reminds me of social studies, the chapter on globalisation on the factor "venturing abroad". nvm.
enjoyed myself thoroughly ytd. cnt imagine how malu i was at art friend. i lost my way and um, lets just say wasnt well informed. movie "the proposal" was really great. ( one of the thrillers caught my eye. surrogates? well, its a movie. but it gave a whole new meaning to the word 'surrogate' used in whose life is it anyway. cant figure out isit for the good, or bad. ) the movie was outrageous and for some parts? simply not for ppl our age. we just dont understand or appreciate it. ( its good that way.) and sarcasm is the new language!
we laughed and laughed. and couldnt decide what to get for ms ng for teachers' day present. hmmmm.
oh, and we bully the poor guy. bcos.. he was actually the only guy. so yea! lols
i still couldnt figure it out. the day aft a wonderful day out.. isnt really great for me. everytime. isit just me or..? its not like a wonderful day out is spent getting drunk and out so the next day is absolutely awful bcos of the hungover. its just..
who bothers to understand? its just easier and more comfortable if you think what you like. bcos that way, the truth wont make you uneasy and realise that you've been that wrong the whole time.
prelims are coming and.. im not ready for it. but its not going to work that way. so. i guess we all have to work hard! and study until every part of our body is screaming. ( yes, you got it right, this is what mrs lee said. ) well, i always thought it was protesting, like my head is protesting in pain?
we'll be ready, bcos we have to.
i'll be, bcos i've to.
Sunday, July 12, 2009
i dont suppose anyone else watches boys over flowers just for the parts with yi jung and ga eul? hahahahaha very nice! hmmm, its abit weird, i just kindof skip all the way to the "after story", abit blur at
im such a romantic.
; wants to smile and laugh everyday just bcos i feel like it
LOLS. is there any difference btwn laugh lines and wrinkles?
Saturday, July 11, 2009
I WILL BE BY AVRIL LAVIGNE/ LEONA LEWIS [im confused, both have this song!]
anw, it is a wonderful song! hahahahaha, kind of reminds me of you- even when i dont want to. okay, that doesn't seem like a good thing. lols.
well, shit. it's little wonder why i keep hearing GONNA GET CAUGHT and GET BACK and find them oddly familiar. they are both sang by DEMI LOVATO. lols, i usually associate songs with the singer ma.
lets have NO BOUNDARIES BY KRIS ALLEN to be the song of our lives! to be still holding on and know that there are no boundaries!
don't know where the future is heading; nothing's gonna bring me down.
break every rule cos there's nothing between you and your dream.
weiird. i much rather be blogging about books than songs. but reading books online is like.. suicide. i cnt stop. haiiix. cn the 'o's come earlier so i cn read more books? LOLS, not the right thing to ask for!
whoa! first time see so many tags :O
heather; how to forget the name?! plus it was um, the title of the clip mrs lau showed us. LOLS. there was this.. song they sang for michael jackson.. de tribute.. on ch 5 , heal the world, a lot a lot people singing there. kids to adults. hmmm, kind of.. shocking. hahaha his only song that i actually know! and cn sing along!
shichin; i tot i said yours more.. weird AND random . hahahah! new days nice ma! hahahaha compared to earth song, it's wonderful! /: a bit bad hor.
diana; got ppl first time cannot skate de? :O lols, i'll move backwards automatically for some reason i cnt fathom!
ethel; yea, must be the brake's fault (not mine!lols) ! hahahaha if you weren't there to hold me, i'll dk fall how many times more!
fooxin; then why that man and elephant open their eyes? /: hahahahaha i dont really um. update my links one. but hor, how to comment on your um, blog ar?
Friday, July 10, 2009
being random.
searched NEW DAYS BY ASHER LANE [the song in "deforestation" clip]
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=HQSK7yzTH-4
kindof weird tho the song is nice, this guy is like.. floating? flying? dk what he's doing /: isit just me? hahahaha
EARTH SONG BY MICHAEL JACKSON [also showed to us, regarding deforestation]
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=0gJcNBKiyMI
this clip actually shows the part " Aaaaaaaaah Ooh Ooh Ooh Ooh Ooh Oooh"? lols, for some reason, the song sound better in this clip.
the clip showed during geog lesson.. abit shocking. why the place where he was singing DIN return to norm, unlike the other areas. plus the lightning never strike the trees he was holding on to.. and man and elephants suddenly open their eyes!
THE PRAYER BY CELINE DION [in tdy's clip for "development" i think]
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=TMAmxiGN-o0
lyrics v meaningful :D think mr teo let us hear it before during singspiration..
rollerblading tdy! lots of mixed feelings about it; anger, disappointment, guilt, joy, regret, thrill! hahahaha is humans complicated or ME?
anw, tdy's lit lesson on humour is totally lost on me. i dont really find humour in unexpected situations. like the lift at crystal's house went berserk, "bounce one time" [quoting crystal] and "out of service" [quote diana]!not an entirely pleasant surprise.
rollerblading is a scary- yet thrilling experience! THANKS CRYSTAL, DIANA, ETHEL FOR YOUR COACHING! and for um, stopping me when i apparently cnt get the brake working- everytime.
im looking at these piling tests with a very positive and optimistic viewpoint! theyre helping me revise my work! :D
maybe im just too sensitive; maybe it's just forgotten that i hvnt tried this; maybe they just din realise
Thursday, July 02, 2009
ahh i dont want to do lit!! lols, that doesnt seem like an intelligent thing to post/confess online! who cares -.-
and.. im so gna flunk my amath test tml!! i dont understand area of a region?!! oh crap. and checking my ans for just one question on the calculator seems to give me a different ans every single time. absolutely fantastic!
so much for staying optimistic
chinese oral is over! hahahaha cnt describe the relief (sort of) i felt! was laughing a little too hysterically (not an understatement hor!) after oral, cnt help it, it was.. the oral was absolutely horrible.
my mind literally blank out when i heard the topic for discussion! what do you feel about schools letting the public in on weekends to use the facilities! :O nth would have prepared me for that shock!
ohwells, tho the examiners were smiling, they werent exactly frowning so..yea. im optimistic. lols, trying to be! anw, i nvr do well for oral. ugh, how pathetic did that sound! D:<
goodluck for the rest for oral!! :D
and.. no one ever said that it's easier done than said! so.. no use crying over split milk!! jy for LC XD
Tuesday, June 30, 2009
waves after waves of disappointment..it felt like a slap, jolting me from a dream i so much wanted to be true..
末名的衝動
just felt like blogging.with chinese olevel oral just on thurs.ohwells.
went to the NWSP award ceremony in the morning/afternoon. its cold, uncomfortable and considerably boring. sth is wrong, cos im the only one who was shivering and chattering when the ceremony ended. anw, not enough chairs, so the poor, unfortunate me has to sit on the hard stairs. lols, think i started the trend of sitting on the stairs! and primary school students behave like primany school students. so huiqing (me!)- it isnt their fault :D
hahahaha miss a whole day of lessons, and test in school!what luck! (see diana, shld hv come along!) lols XD
not daring to dream
Friday, June 19, 2009
i was reading this book ytd and couldn't stop laughing..
"Oh,good for you. So how long has it been since you...dated?"
"New Year's Eve."
Anthony shook his head. "That's two months. That alone could make you depressed."
"I'm not that depressed." Zack's tapping picked up speed. "Could we get off this please?"
"All right, you're not ready for a wife. Start small. Get a dog?"
"A dog? A dog?" Zack slapped the table. "A dog. That's all I need is some dopey dog with big sad eyes telepathically telling me he never sees me and where have i been?"
"Zack..."
"Besides, I had a dog once. I got him when i was three."
"Zack..."
"I went away to college and he died. Dogs are a responsibility. You can't leave them."
"You went away to college." Anthony cast an imploring look at the ceiling. "I don't believe this. Zack, if you got him when you were three, he was fifteen by the time you went to college. That's 105 in dog years. He died because he was old, not because you went to college."
bytheway, Anthony and Zack are property crimes cops, and are just threatened and nearly shot by a .45 (the kind of gun that left large holes in walls. And people.) by a guy named Jerry.anw,that's not important,thing is Zack is depressed.and was nearly shot.and he said "maturity means death."
aiya,isit funny?cos apparently my brother doesnt find it hilarious and look at me like im from outer space -.-
} from Jennifer Cruise- GETTING RID OF BRADLEY.
and did i mention i love my dad?okay,probably not.
wells,where cn you find a dad who cooks and sews and cleans the house?perhaps my sis is right on this one,he's endangered.one in a million.
and he accompanies the brat of his daughter watching Harper's Island cos she's scared but still,wants to watch.even tho he's tired,and dozing off at the chair.
and .. XD
cnt find the book i want online..HIDDEN CURRENTS by Christine Feehan.aiya!shld hv read abit of it at the Times during flag day! >< style="font-weight: bold;">MURDER GAME instead..
I FOUND smoke screen by Sandra Brown ONLINE!!!!!woots! XDD
hahahaha maybe i really should stop reading such books.and read those books which are more..normal.no felons trying to kill the lead,and the lead comes from a normal,happy family.everything is..normal and happy.then the essays i write ll also not be so..tragic.and "dark-themed"
think i need to major in psychology to figure out what and why human do what they do.
Tuesday, June 16, 2009
here's something to cheer you up if youre nt exactly in your best mood!tho,this story is rather..old?lols
the story about a water bearer...
who had two large pots hung on the ends of a pole which he carried across his back.one of the pots had a crack in it and,by the time the water bearer reached his master's house,it would have leaked half of its contents.
for two years this went on daily,with the bearer delivering only one and a half pots of water.
one day,the cracked pot said to the water bearer: I am ashamed of myself,and i want to apologise to you.
why? asked the bearer,what are you ashamed of?
the pot replied: i have been able to deliver only half my load because this crack in my side causes water to leak out.
the water bearer,feeling sorry for the pot,said: as we return to the master's house,i want you to notice the beautiful flowers along the path.
the pot did this and was cheered up a little by the sight.
the bearer said to the pot: did you notice that there were flowers only on your side of the path?that's because i have always known about your flaw,and i took advantage of it.i planted flower seeds on your side,and every day while we walked back from the stream,you've watered them.for two years,i have been able to pick the beautiful flowers to decorate my master's table.without you being the way you are,he would not have this beauty to grace his house.
this illustrates that each of us has our own unique flaws. we're all flawed pots to a degree. but if we can look away from this and focus on the positive aspects of our situation, it will not only lift our self-esteem but also inspire the people around us. (:
shy people make incredible listener. the athletically challenged frequently compensate by organising events and encouraging others. those who struggle with reading may become engineers or businessmen! you are made the way you are to do something only you can do!
hope this helps!
lols. XD
要为自己笑
Sunday, June 14, 2009
going through the motions.
hahahaha,maybe happy posts make one happy.
lols,anw.hey!how do you actually get along with your siblings?!especially those who are computer games addicts and shoot daggers at their sisters who wants to facebook!hmmmmph!
l-o-l-s.im getting random.oohwells,not as quite as sihui luh![dont let sihui see this post,pleeease!hahaahhaha]
life cn be so boring when theres only homework to do everyday.no where to go,no money to spend...lols,reminds me of TKM,that long
kindof disappointed with the shows on tv.why all the plots/storylines so sad one?!or else there's alot of scheming agnst one another ): plus,zui du fu ren xin ar!why the bad guys like all females one!hahahahahaa,thats an obvious common factor.
FLAG DAY THIS WEDNESDAY!!!
no more mercy relief cip or so,i heard?
looking forward [literally AND metaphorically] (:
literature students should rmb the joke abt "pull up your socks",literal meaning and metaphorical meaning XDD
homework checklist has nth to check off,cos everything is half done.ohwells.and not that i have a checklist to tick!
I LOVE MY BLOG.ohkay,that shld convince me not to leave my blog to rot.
lets all jy!
要自爱一点
Saturday, June 06, 2009
sick and tired.but who cares anyway?
Friday, May 22, 2009
is disappointment and despair a constant in my life?
i know something changed.i can feel the drift between us,i am not moronic enough not to sense it.did i allow it to happen?subconsciously or not- it is my fault.isn't it?
got back results!seemed like a wake-up call -.- ah well..what's done is done.right..?
'o' level chinese coming up!!let's hope i wont write out of point for my chinese compo agn,the one with the heavier percentage!ugh.confidence seems to be slipping from me every single time i think of it..
maybe telling myself everything is alright,all my anxiety is misplaced will put my mind at peace..maybe this time it will work..maybe if i just tell myself enough...
another boring post by a boring person XD
i cnt change who i am tho.lols,tdy at the wesley hall darned humiliating!hey i din mean what i wrote for my letter,please!
nine more days to 'o' level chinese,
the earth is still rotating despite everything.
Saturday, May 16, 2009
went out ytd!marina square.
i think the high point of the day was watching "the uninvited"!LOLS,diana and i freaked.for nth!!!wth!the plot is so darned dumb!!no wonder tchrs hate marking compositions ending with "and i woke up to find out it was just a dream".the ending was as bad as that.it's like waste of time,money and ofcos,nerves. -.- but it was a rather fun and amusing experience!
mye is over.cnt get my mind ard it.it feels weird when i wake up to find that i ve nth to do.i finally get to use the computer,only to realise idk what to do.
it feels wrong to not feel anything.what happened to me until i dont care any longer?
facebook is surprisingly fun!LOLS.no wonder sihui ended up doing the quizes instead of studying!i kindof got addicted and did lots of quizes.and i got lots of ridiculous results,but it was pretty entertaining nvrtheless.seriously.the very first quiz i did tdy was "what icecream flavour are you?",i got black current!what's dumb is im evil and gothic!!huh.so weird!
P.S.taking off the imeen player,got abit of problem w it.and i think im gna leave the blog to rot.maybe update once a mth or sth.i dont hv anything to update.sadly.im just such a boring person /:
feeling lost whenever im near you..
isit really enough to just take first step in faith,despite not seeing the whole staircase?
im just too exhausted to care anymore.who cares enough to just ask?nobody.why am i surprised?
Saturday, May 02, 2009
GOODLUCK FOR THE MYE!!
tout le meilleur
wna close down blog D:<
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